29 October, 2004

*humph*

i'm poli-ticked-off.

i'm sick of the election, i'm sick of tv adds, i'm sick of talking to narrow-minded co-workers, and i'm sick of living in a swing state.

just let me vote for kerry, let him win, fix this fucking country, take it back from the jesus-freaks, and let me get back to my normal life before election '04.

thank you.

25 October, 2004

inhale - exhale

i have a bronchial infection... basically, the cold taxed my bronchial tubes and the results is an asthma-like reaction. so what do i get? antibiotics and an inhaler to help me breathe... yay!

and after several days of drugs... i'm feeling much better - thank you drugs!!!

22 October, 2004

FINALLY!

i'm going to the doctor today to FINALLY get rid of this fucking bronchitis. please say a quick prayer to your personal god/goddess/universe/spirits that the bronchitis hasn't turned into pneumonia or something else more deadly.

whoa is me...

18 October, 2004

an open page

dear mary,

its been one year since i saw you last. it was a crisp fall day when some friends and i took a long lunch hour and wandered over to say hi to you. it was the first time i saw you in the hospital, and the last. everyone left, oddly enough, and left the two us alone - i sat on your bed and held your hand and just stared into your eyes. i so wanted to lay down next to you and just hold you, but i didn't, i horribly regret that now.

it was a few days later, the day after i first saw times square, that i received the voicemail that you had left us. i was relieved to hear you moved on in a peaceful manner, but i was also sobered knowing that your celebration was planned on the day before i was to see times square for the last time - i haven't been there since. i stayed knowing that you'd want it that way.

i still see you though. its amazing how i run into you at the grocery store, or at the gym, or randomly on the street. the cycle is always the same... "hey! its mary!" "oh wait, that can't be mary" and then the inevitable tears that well up. they're never expected, they just come. and the cycle always ends with me silently wandering to a quiet corner of wherever i am to spend a few moments colleting myself before living again.

then there are the times i remember you without realizing it. like today. someone was talking about how phone numbers at work are oddly synched up with friends, e.g., one number is 2345 while a friends number is 5432. i was about to pipe up about a good friend who's numer was opposite of mine... 1314 -vs- 1413. then i realized that number was yours. begin cycle.

your official date is on saturday. i'll be there - most likely running into several others.

i'll try to celebrate, but i can't promise anything.

awe... poop.

before leaving this morning, i indulged myself in my most recent a.m. ritual of pocketing a vitamin c and a daily multi-vitamin to take when i make it to my first cup of coffee, soda, or drink of water. i've been doing this for about a week now in attempts to aleviate my self-diagnosed-bronchitis.

imagine my surprise when i realized that the vitamin c i've been taking for this last week has actually been a fiber laxative.

"hmmmm...." i think to myself as i leave, "i wonder how that's affected my life this last week."

and strangely enough, for the first time i didn't have an answer for myself.

14 October, 2004

signed, sealed, delivered

by the simple advertising coax of air america radio online i have joined the democratic singles network dating website.

sooooooo... if you have some hidden infatuation with me, my personality, or my body, i suggest checking me out and dating me. yes folks, i may be datable again (is that how you spell datable... dateable... date-able... is that even a word?)

good luck, and may the best man win.

13 October, 2004

fall reflection

as i walk out of my building this morning i am greeted by the wind whispering to me that fall is here and that my winter dreams are well on their way.

the crisp breeze and chilly misty rain has coaxed an abundance of leaves to escape their prisons in the sky and cover the sidewalks in a collage of oranges, reds, and yellows, pasted down by a light coating of a paste-like rain.

the sky is a fallish shade of dim grey, a depressing color to some, but an invigorating color to those of us in the northland that get shivers at seeing that color, not as a result of the coolness in the air that it brings, but because it's a sign that the much anticipated turn of seasons is in progress.

jackets, sweaters, sweatshirts, and coffee adorn many a corporate-american this morning on their way into work - one more sign that the fall has officially taken it's hold on the lives of those around me.

many people say it is the perfect day to be at work, but i for one think the opposite - i'd much rather be encompassed by mother-nature on a day like this than in the middle of the summer when the sun is bright and the men are tossing around a football half-naked.

i stop walking and take a deep breath through my nose and mouth at the same time - the world momentarily stops around me and i'm surrounded by a chilly peace.

this is my energy.

this is my salvation.

12 October, 2004

ooh...

tom takes a mystical twist in his blog... see the new moon phase tracker at the bottom of my sidebar... thanx to eye of horus for that one = )

bask in the splendour of the universe...

11 October, 2004

lateness

yeah, i'm still at work. how shitty huh?

so my rehearsal got cancelled tonight (for the cheap & tawdry show) so what do i do? work, dammit, work! i could be at home, lounging in a bath, eating icecream and reading a book... or i could be a coffee shoppe relaxing over a warm cup o' coffee and a good magazine... OR i could just be SITTING ON MY COUCH WATCHING TV! but NOOOOOO, i'm at work.

lousy work.

anybody know a cute and rich old fag who can still get it up?

was it a dream?

chicago came and went - a euphoric 12 hours that buzzed by so fast it seems as if it never happened.

we had an amazing time flying down (w/ mimosas) then taking the train down to the loop to check out millennium park, the corner bakery, and the art institute, and then heading up to boystown for drinks at roscoe's and dinner at the twisted spoke. a short train ride back to the car, evening vespers at st. johns lutheran church on montrose and then back in the plane for gin and whiskey.

on the way home, the pilot got permission to fly us around downtown, over navy pier, and down to soldier field... how beautiful to be cruising over lake michigan and checking out one of my favorite cities at night. *sigh*

sunday was composed of church, rehearsal, movie, book shopping, and extreme makeover: home edition - and, yes, it made me cry... again = )

hope your weekends were as wonderful as mine - catch you all later!

07 October, 2004

yay for me!!!

wanna hear my saturday plans??? tough, you're going to hear them anyway.

so... i'll be getting up nice and early and going to a regional airport w/ some friends of mine to take a private plane to chicago for the day!!! we'll fly down at 8am, go to the art institute and the newly opened millennium park, go to a hymn festival in the evening, and fly home that night!!!

i'm so excited i could just wizzzz in my khakis!!!

06 October, 2004

crazy people

actual phone conversation at 3:30pm today...

dana - "hey, can you call me later"
tom - "why, are you really busy right now?"
d - "yeah, really busy, can you call me later?"
t - "um, no, i'm teaching right now."
d - "geeze, you're ALWAYS teaching"
t - "um, yeah... cause i'm a teacher"

i swear, my friends are blonder than myself sometimes...

lab time

well, i'm about 5.5 hours into my training session today. surprisingly enough, i haven't even gotten close to rasping my voice either! how nice - sigh.

ahhhh! HORRIBLY sad... joyce jillson died today. *sniff* *sniff* i'm seriously terrified, where AM i going to get my daily horoscope from? as she dies a part of me dies with her...

yeah, whatever. it's sad, but not worth bustin' a nut over *wink*

btw - thanx for the really sweet comment, blues mama! how nice to hear from someone i don't know! my hugs go out to you = )

happy masturbation everyone!

good morning!

hello everyone!

the timestamp doesn't lie... yes people, i'm at work at 6:50am! you see, i'm teaching a full 8 hour class today and felt the necessity to be in extra early.

damn, the sun wasn't even BEGINNING to rise when i left for work, the parking lot only had 3 of the usual 30 cars in it, and i actually made it to work and was able to go to coffee w/ jess = ) i felt so blessed to be able to begin my day with her be-FORE nicole got to - eat THAT sucker!!! ha ha ha ha ha ha

yeah, mornings do weird shit to a person. i'd avoid them at all costs people, really, it's just not worth it.

happy day people! happy day = ) this may be a multi-blogging day because of the abundance of breaks we're going to have during the session, oh and all the exercises. my hugs to all!

05 October, 2004

don't talk to me

tom is fucking tired.

tom is bitchy.

tom has worked WAY too hard today.

tom wants to go home.

goddammit, tom IS going to go home.

you should to.

the end

04 October, 2004

!!!

i made apple cider this weekend!!!

i hadn't done that since i was a kid and my mom and dad made us help gather all the apples from the tree in the backyard and haul them to the cider mill to process the crap (or juice) out of them. this weekend my friend brian and i did it ourselves with his medievil-torture-device-like-looking press. mmmm, mmmm, good shit! thanx for the super time brian - and for the killer meatloaf, jen!

the rest of the weekend included dinner/movie w/ a friend, another tip to bead monkey for christmas gift supplies, the coffee shope, and a really fun/fucked-up happy hour that was pretty much a 4 hour conversation about sex and orgies, i'm REALLY surprised we didn't end up in one... everyone was so hot and bothered after all that talk. whew - i'm getting hot now just thinkin' about it... i gotta go for a second...

*pitter patter to the bathroom*