11 May, 2005

hi

i really don't have anything to say.

the cheap and tawdry sideshow starts-up tomorrow.

verdi's requiem is in a few weeks.

i'm teaching today.

i have my church directory picture tomorrow.

i'm ready for a vacation that is destined to not happen.

i need a haircut.

more to come, i promise... man, this blog is lame-o lately = )

03 May, 2005

songs for the spirit

in december of this past year, my heart was deeply touched by a jason and demarco concert at all gods children mcc here in minneapolis.

i remember listening to their "songs for the spirit" cd almost the entire way back to omaha for christmas. i also remember driving through rural nebraska, merely 10 miles from the christian university that hurt me so much, singing songs i never thought i'd sing again and that made me sob because of an amazing feeling of finally reaching the place where i could sing songs of praise to god without feeling the slightest bit of guilt or pain or condemnation.

in those moments, i was not only one with the spirit but all was truly well with my soul.

i listened to this cd again today at work and was amazed at how the music touched me so powerfully again. i found myself crying tears of joy and thanking god for never leaving me through the years of trial that i've been through. i also found myself praising him in my own way for proving to me that no matter what happens in this world around me and no matter how blind some people may be, the truth powerfully lies in this foundational truth: sometimes god chooses to display himself to us simply through his actions rather than through his words.