so, i updated my catster account today! you can now see both of my cats from my side bar under "my life in websites"
enjoy!
15 February, 2005
10 February, 2005
thursday ramblings
it is a most disconcerting moment when you are going to the bathroom and notice that your underwear are inside out. i mean, it's weird because up to that moment all seemed fine and dandy then all of a sudden your world has flipped poles and you can actually FEEL a difference "down there." what was perfectly comfortable for the last 5 hours is different, it's unnerving, it's downright uncomfortable. all you can think of for the rest of the day is how in the HELL did this happen and how soon can get it back to normal so as to save yourself any more discomfort.
and then there's the fact that everyone stares at you like they know something is wrong but don't want to offer you help.
the basic goodness of mankind has diminished.
and then there's the fact that everyone stares at you like they know something is wrong but don't want to offer you help.
the basic goodness of mankind has diminished.
09 February, 2005
an open letter
to argus:
why are you so concerned about the way i live my backdoor-desiring-life? does it affect the way you sleep at night... does it cause you to look at the cucumbers at the grocery store differently... or is it perhaps the fact that you are so insecure about yourself (read: you have a stick up your tight, virgin, ass) that when someone comes along that is actually enjoying life and basking in it's everyday blessings you just can't stand it.
let me suggest that the next time you desire to rant and rave in the way you just did that you remember these three things:
1) i don't give a flying fuck what you think (and most likely no one else does either).
2) if you don't like the way i live my life, then don't read about it in my blog.
and
3) if most fun thing you can find to do on a wednesday afternoon in february is to read through an entire gay man's blog simply to confirm your suspicion that he is a "pansy", then maybe you should invest in some porn or a dildo or something... make use of your time, don't waste mine.
and now look... you made me waste an entire blog on your un-warranted, weak, homophobic, trashy, (and most likely closeted) rantings.
*********************
a most blessed ash wednesday my friends!
why are you so concerned about the way i live my backdoor-desiring-life? does it affect the way you sleep at night... does it cause you to look at the cucumbers at the grocery store differently... or is it perhaps the fact that you are so insecure about yourself (read: you have a stick up your tight, virgin, ass) that when someone comes along that is actually enjoying life and basking in it's everyday blessings you just can't stand it.
let me suggest that the next time you desire to rant and rave in the way you just did that you remember these three things:
1) i don't give a flying fuck what you think (and most likely no one else does either).
2) if you don't like the way i live my life, then don't read about it in my blog.
and
3) if most fun thing you can find to do on a wednesday afternoon in february is to read through an entire gay man's blog simply to confirm your suspicion that he is a "pansy", then maybe you should invest in some porn or a dildo or something... make use of your time, don't waste mine.
and now look... you made me waste an entire blog on your un-warranted, weak, homophobic, trashy, (and most likely closeted) rantings.
*********************
a most blessed ash wednesday my friends!
08 February, 2005
hmmm
i like silly putty.
when i'm stressed, it's always there for me to manipulate and fondle. when i'm frustrated, it's there for me to beat. when i'm bored, it's there to keep my time occupied. and when i'm just here, well, so is my silly putty.
as a trainer i have lots of little cutsy things at my desk to keep myself and my students busy and engaged in training... but nothing keeps me as engaged as my silly putty.
current silly putty color: green.
when i'm stressed, it's always there for me to manipulate and fondle. when i'm frustrated, it's there for me to beat. when i'm bored, it's there to keep my time occupied. and when i'm just here, well, so is my silly putty.
as a trainer i have lots of little cutsy things at my desk to keep myself and my students busy and engaged in training... but nothing keeps me as engaged as my silly putty.
current silly putty color: green.
07 February, 2005
until...
i bought "the bracelet" this weekend.
that is... the until there's a cure bracelet.
it's a really neat looking bracelet, but quite possibly the neatest thing about it is that 100% of the purchase price goes to the organization. than means when you go to the body shop or kenneth cole or any other retailer to buy the bracelet, the full purchase price goes to "until."
i'm going to have the inside plaque on mine engraved with the simple name "larry".
larry was the first person i ever knew that had aids... unfortunately i had no idea he had aids until he was the first person i ever knew to die of aids.
lets stop making it such a taboo subject... lets fight this thing.
that is... the until there's a cure bracelet.
it's a really neat looking bracelet, but quite possibly the neatest thing about it is that 100% of the purchase price goes to the organization. than means when you go to the body shop or kenneth cole or any other retailer to buy the bracelet, the full purchase price goes to "until."
i'm going to have the inside plaque on mine engraved with the simple name "larry".
larry was the first person i ever knew that had aids... unfortunately i had no idea he had aids until he was the first person i ever knew to die of aids.
lets stop making it such a taboo subject... lets fight this thing.
03 February, 2005
ahhh
what the fuck is going on w/ my blog???
shit... i bet it has something to do with my pic hosting site... damn them.
shit... i bet it has something to do with my pic hosting site... damn them.
31 January, 2005
weekend update
helped friend move
hurt back
cleaned apartment
went on a date
went bowling
drank beer
got beads
churched it
brunched it
looked at new lofts in the area
watched sunday fox tv shows
ate chinese
4 loads of laundry
hurt back
cleaned apartment
went on a date
went bowling
drank beer
got beads
churched it
brunched it
looked at new lofts in the area
watched sunday fox tv shows
ate chinese
4 loads of laundry
27 January, 2005
26 January, 2005
sleeplessness sucks
the last few nights i've taken great pride in being able to snuggle-up in my flannel sheets at times i never knew people could fall asleep at... say 9:30... 10... 10:30.
one problem though... i can't sleep.
i toss, i turn, i meditate, i project myself, i pray, i even get up and drink milk but no matter what i do, i just can't sleep.
last night, for example, i crawled into bed at 10:30 and crawled back out at 11:30 frustrated and angry. i turned on the tv and ate some sharp cheddar. at 12 i crawled back into bed and tossed and turned until 12:58 in which i sad "shit... i'm never going to fall asleep again." in which i fell asleep about 3 minutes later.
the point isn't that i eventually fell asleep, it's that it took 2 1/2 hour to do so.
but the cheese was good!
one problem though... i can't sleep.
i toss, i turn, i meditate, i project myself, i pray, i even get up and drink milk but no matter what i do, i just can't sleep.
last night, for example, i crawled into bed at 10:30 and crawled back out at 11:30 frustrated and angry. i turned on the tv and ate some sharp cheddar. at 12 i crawled back into bed and tossed and turned until 12:58 in which i sad "shit... i'm never going to fall asleep again." in which i fell asleep about 3 minutes later.
the point isn't that i eventually fell asleep, it's that it took 2 1/2 hour to do so.
but the cheese was good!
24 January, 2005
march on colorado springs
would anyone care to join me on a trek to colorado springs in early may for the dear dr. dobson rally at focus on the family? it's a non-violent 3-day weekend dedicated to debunk dobson's horrible allegations against gays and their "alternative" families. horrible allegations like this:
"they [homosexuals] don't just want marriage. they want to destroy marriage -- and the family -- as we know it." dr james dobson
destroy the family???
it's time that people started thinking logically about these things. why, in god's beautiful earth, would the wonderful and loving gay families in this country want to DESTROY the family? last i checked they were looking for marriage so they could, at the very least, find security and acceptance for their families.
someone go with me... i used to support focus on the family... it's time i stood up to the unwarranted hatred in this world...
jen? will you go with me?
"they [homosexuals] don't just want marriage. they want to destroy marriage -- and the family -- as we know it." dr james dobson
destroy the family???
it's time that people started thinking logically about these things. why, in god's beautiful earth, would the wonderful and loving gay families in this country want to DESTROY the family? last i checked they were looking for marriage so they could, at the very least, find security and acceptance for their families.
someone go with me... i used to support focus on the family... it's time i stood up to the unwarranted hatred in this world...
jen? will you go with me?
21 January, 2005
these are a few of my favorite things
20 January, 2005
welcome home
when i decided to change the format of my blog i basically asked myself (1) "what DOES your personal universe look like anyway?" to which i also had to ask (2) "what IS your personal universe?" to which i ended with (3) "when in your life have you felt like you were in your own personal universe?"
my answer to these questions (last to first) was this:
(3) i've most often felt like i was in my personal universe when around water. i grew up on lake michigan and had a small stream in my backyard... since birth, water has been my focal point and i've always been in my own world when around it ever since.
(2) my personal universe is where i feel the most comfortable... where everything around me disappears... where life as i know it no longer matters... where i can sit for hours and never miss the time.
(1) it looks like a rocky beach on lake michigan. it looks like the lighthouse i grew up by. it sounds like the waves crashing on the rocks on the shore. it looks like water.
welcome to the new "nakachunkoff's personal universe"! my foundation is a sandy shore. my words are backed up by river stones. and my title is the very same lighthouse i grew up by, the one i used to sit on for hours while only staring into the lake and hearing only the sound of water and seagulls.
everytime i look at this blog i'll remind me of what i dearly miss... what i dearly love... and what brings me the most peace i've possibly ever experienced in my entire life. hopefully the visuals will help you, too, to find your own personal universe.
my answer to these questions (last to first) was this:
(3) i've most often felt like i was in my personal universe when around water. i grew up on lake michigan and had a small stream in my backyard... since birth, water has been my focal point and i've always been in my own world when around it ever since.
(2) my personal universe is where i feel the most comfortable... where everything around me disappears... where life as i know it no longer matters... where i can sit for hours and never miss the time.
(1) it looks like a rocky beach on lake michigan. it looks like the lighthouse i grew up by. it sounds like the waves crashing on the rocks on the shore. it looks like water.
welcome to the new "nakachunkoff's personal universe"! my foundation is a sandy shore. my words are backed up by river stones. and my title is the very same lighthouse i grew up by, the one i used to sit on for hours while only staring into the lake and hearing only the sound of water and seagulls.
everytime i look at this blog i'll remind me of what i dearly miss... what i dearly love... and what brings me the most peace i've possibly ever experienced in my entire life. hopefully the visuals will help you, too, to find your own personal universe.
i see big changes ahead...
fyi - i'm making some asthetic changes to my blog either today or tomorrow... be aware that in that timeframe my blog may have some times where it's a little funky, please be patient!
18 January, 2005
crabby lobster
i'm a crabby lobster today.
ok, so i'm not really crabby... just looking for an excuse to be able to say whatever i want to say with absolutly no accountability at all (which is the best way to speak if you ask me).
i've already blamed:
being up late last night (although i wouldn't have been able to sleep anyway),
oversleeping this morning (though i was still at work on time),
almost missing the bus (note the word "almost"... i really caught it just in time),
oh, and the cold (though it's going to warm up to a balmy 29 today - shorts weather!).
ooh, i think i'm going to blame the lack of snow. yeah. that's it.
there's no snow on the ground so i'm crabby. (although there really IS snow on the ground... it's just not fresh).
crap... i have no real excuse for being crabby... other than it is SO MUCH FUN!!!
ok, so i'm not really crabby... just looking for an excuse to be able to say whatever i want to say with absolutly no accountability at all (which is the best way to speak if you ask me).
i've already blamed:
being up late last night (although i wouldn't have been able to sleep anyway),
oversleeping this morning (though i was still at work on time),
almost missing the bus (note the word "almost"... i really caught it just in time),
oh, and the cold (though it's going to warm up to a balmy 29 today - shorts weather!).
ooh, i think i'm going to blame the lack of snow. yeah. that's it.
there's no snow on the ground so i'm crabby. (although there really IS snow on the ground... it's just not fresh).
crap... i have no real excuse for being crabby... other than it is SO MUCH FUN!!!
13 January, 2005
stangel elementary school
i happened upon this pic this morning... my old elementary school!!! it's amazing how tiny those buildings look when you see them 14 years later. wow.
i also noticed that the school's nickname is still the "stangel stars." i'd like to set the record straight and mention that we had a contest when i was in 5th grade or so for a school nickname... we ended up with the "stangel stars." how cool is it to know that you left your mark on elementary students for years and years.
the memories i have there...
like how the bus drove along the shores of lake michigan every morning on the way to school (damn, i miss that lake terribly)...
like getting detention for throwing ice on the playground...
for being afraid of fingerpainting in kindergarden because i was afraid of getting my fingers dirty (no comments please)...
of my FAVORITE teacher in the WHOLE WIDE WORLD, mr. o'...
for crying when 3rd grade ended because i didn't want to loose mr. o' as a teacher...
for the school forest...
for sex ed...
for new kids on the block!!!
gosh, i had a good childhood = ) thanx stangel elementary!!!
12 January, 2005
pregmata
i, the pious and humble tom, am showing signs of the pregmata. yes, the pregmata, those holy signs of the virgin mother's pregnancy. many claim that the pregmata is fake and even blasphemous, but i am a testament to it's reality... how do i know these to be true?
1) last night i almost fainted... i got all light-headed and pale. i had to sit down and get some water to make sure i didn't whack my nose on the concrete.
2) i'm having cravings... i want to eat everything in sight and nothing sounds bad.
3) certain things have started to make me sick to my stomach... diet soda, sugar-free producs, "lite" fares... etc. even the smell of a soy-latte makes me want to vomit.
and the most obvious reason why i'm showing signs of the pregmata:
4) my mid-section has been getting bigger, my pants are getting tighter, and i'm bloating.
if you'd like to come and pray at my feet in the presence of this most holy of miracles, please contact me. take your time though, i'm not sure this miracle will be leaving me any time soon.
O benedictum fructum ventris Maria,
Ad te clamamus, Ad te suspiramus,
Gementes et flentes, in hac lacrimarum valle.
1) last night i almost fainted... i got all light-headed and pale. i had to sit down and get some water to make sure i didn't whack my nose on the concrete.
2) i'm having cravings... i want to eat everything in sight and nothing sounds bad.
3) certain things have started to make me sick to my stomach... diet soda, sugar-free producs, "lite" fares... etc. even the smell of a soy-latte makes me want to vomit.
and the most obvious reason why i'm showing signs of the pregmata:
4) my mid-section has been getting bigger, my pants are getting tighter, and i'm bloating.
if you'd like to come and pray at my feet in the presence of this most holy of miracles, please contact me. take your time though, i'm not sure this miracle will be leaving me any time soon.
O benedictum fructum ventris Maria,
Ad te clamamus, Ad te suspiramus,
Gementes et flentes, in hac lacrimarum valle.
05 January, 2005
never in the united states
Across Europe at noon Wednesday (6 a.m. EST), politicians, workers and tourists observed a three-minute silent tribute for the victims across southern Asia. TV and radio stations interrupted programming and church bells rang.
never in the united states of america would this EVER happen... it makes me sad to even think of what people would say, how big-business would react to the "3,000 [employees] x 3 minutes", or our citizens simply not caring to stop their life for something literally 1/2 a world away.
never in the united states of america would this EVER happen... it makes me sad to even think of what people would say, how big-business would react to the "3,000 [employees] x 3 minutes", or our citizens simply not caring to stop their life for something literally 1/2 a world away.
04 January, 2005
ka-RAY-zeeee day...
offsite meetings, onsite meetings, crazy project meetings, and not enough time in the day to finish it all.
wow, 2005 is starting off to be a really busy year for me!
first rehearsal for the firebugs was last nigth... wow, this is going to be a really cool show. fyi - no nudity, no gay stuff, and not even really controversial... just a good ol' "make ya think" play from the 1950's. should be fantastic. check out the side bar for dates of the production and put them on your calendar!
ok, back to work now!
wow, 2005 is starting off to be a really busy year for me!
first rehearsal for the firebugs was last nigth... wow, this is going to be a really cool show. fyi - no nudity, no gay stuff, and not even really controversial... just a good ol' "make ya think" play from the 1950's. should be fantastic. check out the side bar for dates of the production and put them on your calendar!
ok, back to work now!
03 January, 2005
man bag
the minneapolis star tribune has a GREAT article on the popular rise of man bags. i must say i've never really gotten shit for carrying around my man bag (or a purse as i call it) as a matter of fact, i'm quite proud of mine *proud grin*
check out the article here
check out the article here
31 December, 2004
don't make resolutions, continue revolutions
every year people around the world make so-called "resolutions" for the next year of their life. they start their year off totally wrong by reflecting back upon all the stuff they did or didn't do in the previous year and then "resolve" to make sure things change in the future.
i'm sick of beginning my year by trying to figure out what's wrong in my life... dammit... i'm starting my own new years tradition.
invariably, each of us has had something that has gone miserably wrong in the past year... but each of us has probably also seen major changes in our lives because of that event. mindsets change and we find the good out of an evil situation... this drastic change in thinking is a revolution in your life. a revolution is defined as "a drastic and far-reaching change in ways of thinking and behaving."
this year, instead of focusing on the resolutions to "fix" your life, pinpoint the revolutions that occured in your life in the last year, celebrate them, and vow to continue that revolution into next year.
now, for my first 2004 revolution:
in 2004 i ended a physically and emotionally abusive relationship. unfortunately it ended with me needing to get a restraining order and needing to go to court to argue my case. this situation is quite possibly one of the most trying and emotionally fucked-up times of my life.
in 2004 i had a revolution in my life. i realized that i didn't have to take shit from anyone. i realized that friends are one of god's greatest gifts to a person, and i realized that true friends will do anything for you. i realized how wonderful strangers can be in a person's life. i realized that i am a stronger man than i ever thought i could be.
in 2005 i vow to continue this revolution in my life so that i may become even stronger as a gay man... even better of a friend... and even more of a humanitarian to strangers.
i pass this new tradition on to you, my friends. please start your own years off with these blessings, please find your own revolutions, please continue to change your lives.
i love you all = ) happy new year.
i'm sick of beginning my year by trying to figure out what's wrong in my life... dammit... i'm starting my own new years tradition.
invariably, each of us has had something that has gone miserably wrong in the past year... but each of us has probably also seen major changes in our lives because of that event. mindsets change and we find the good out of an evil situation... this drastic change in thinking is a revolution in your life. a revolution is defined as "a drastic and far-reaching change in ways of thinking and behaving."
this year, instead of focusing on the resolutions to "fix" your life, pinpoint the revolutions that occured in your life in the last year, celebrate them, and vow to continue that revolution into next year.
now, for my first 2004 revolution:
in 2004 i ended a physically and emotionally abusive relationship. unfortunately it ended with me needing to get a restraining order and needing to go to court to argue my case. this situation is quite possibly one of the most trying and emotionally fucked-up times of my life.
in 2004 i had a revolution in my life. i realized that i didn't have to take shit from anyone. i realized that friends are one of god's greatest gifts to a person, and i realized that true friends will do anything for you. i realized how wonderful strangers can be in a person's life. i realized that i am a stronger man than i ever thought i could be.
in 2005 i vow to continue this revolution in my life so that i may become even stronger as a gay man... even better of a friend... and even more of a humanitarian to strangers.
i pass this new tradition on to you, my friends. please start your own years off with these blessings, please find your own revolutions, please continue to change your lives.
i love you all = ) happy new year.
30 December, 2004
shit...
116,000???
jesus man...
i think life in the pink has put into words my exact feelings on this situation...
"
December 30, 2004
Tidal Wave of Denial
I haven't mentioned the tsunami here because I've decided to deal with it by going into deep denial. I have enough things to be neurotic and upset about: the last election, how I'm totally not going to get into grad school, whether or not my pores are too big, the war in Iraq, gay people being defined as second class citizens, my job, etc. If I have to really comprehend this latest tragedy, I'm pretty sure that I will never sleep again.
"
*huge sigh*
jesus man...
i think life in the pink has put into words my exact feelings on this situation...
"
December 30, 2004
Tidal Wave of Denial
I haven't mentioned the tsunami here because I've decided to deal with it by going into deep denial. I have enough things to be neurotic and upset about: the last election, how I'm totally not going to get into grad school, whether or not my pores are too big, the war in Iraq, gay people being defined as second class citizens, my job, etc. If I have to really comprehend this latest tragedy, I'm pretty sure that I will never sleep again.
"
*huge sigh*
29 December, 2004
the few, the proud, the gmailers...
i am totally PSYCHED to announce that i now have an ever-so-coveted gmail account!!!
i can now be reached at tnechodomu@gmail.com.
(thanx brain!)
*** UPDATE ***
thanx for the question bruce... for the rest of you, he asked what was so great about gmail anyway.
GMAIL, is a new, currently in pilot-mode, email host provided by google. gmail gives you 1 whole gig of storage (1,000 mb) and also a slew of other features, including email searching, intuitive and killer organization functionality, as well as showing whole conversation strings when you bring up an email. and quite possibly the coolest thing about gmail... you can only join if you're invited by an existing member. *grin*
now for a question to my friends around the world... do i officially ditch my yahoo email account for my new gmail account??? hmmmm...
i can now be reached at tnechodomu@gmail.com.
(thanx brain!)
*** UPDATE ***
thanx for the question bruce... for the rest of you, he asked what was so great about gmail anyway.
GMAIL, is a new, currently in pilot-mode, email host provided by google. gmail gives you 1 whole gig of storage (1,000 mb) and also a slew of other features, including email searching, intuitive and killer organization functionality, as well as showing whole conversation strings when you bring up an email. and quite possibly the coolest thing about gmail... you can only join if you're invited by an existing member. *grin*
now for a question to my friends around the world... do i officially ditch my yahoo email account for my new gmail account??? hmmmm...
24 December, 2004
ho ho ho!
i'm in good ol' nebraska right now, and having a very nice time w/ my family. the trip down was freakin' awesome with my new mercury grand marquis from enterprise car rental place-ish thingy = ) what a smooth ride!
and now i'm helping mom with last minute baking and such.
church tonight and then let the holiday goodness begin, hell, the holiday goodness has already begun.
merry christmas everyone!!!
22 December, 2004
tom's "be sure to" list
and the most important one:
i've learned a very important lesson today, when you feel like breaking out in tears, try smiling and thinking of the good stuff. like i'm going home tomorrow to spend a week with my family. christmas is in 3 days. i have all my christmas shopping done. and amazingly so, this year i was able to keep my final christmas costs significantly lower than in previous years. and quite possibly the most important: only my car is bruised... i'm fine... and i still have the most important things to me; my friends, my family, and yes, my health.
merry christmas everyone! may the spirits bring you a most blessed holiday this year.
17 December, 2004
happy friday!
well my friends, it's friday. and a hell of one too. what a week... what a week.
good news though, not only did i get a new pic of myself on here (it's actually my headshot) but i also just finished two MAJOR projects at work as well as put another major one into review status which means it's out of my hands until monday afternoon!
unfortunately i won't have a very relaxing weekend, but it'll be a very fun one regardless = ) it includes a concert, several brunches, shopping (hopefully to complete the xmas list), a party, church, decorating the church, and a callback for a play (see the sidebar). so you can see the most relaxation i'll get is on sunday after the callback in which i'll prolly be so wired i won't be able to sleep.
184 hours till christmas!!!
good news though, not only did i get a new pic of myself on here (it's actually my headshot) but i also just finished two MAJOR projects at work as well as put another major one into review status which means it's out of my hands until monday afternoon!
unfortunately i won't have a very relaxing weekend, but it'll be a very fun one regardless = ) it includes a concert, several brunches, shopping (hopefully to complete the xmas list), a party, church, decorating the church, and a callback for a play (see the sidebar). so you can see the most relaxation i'll get is on sunday after the callback in which i'll prolly be so wired i won't be able to sleep.
184 hours till christmas!!!
13 December, 2004
trot down memory lane...
this posting will prolly bring warm fuzzies to amber and jen... for the rest of you - enjoy it anyway!
so anyway, i came across some pics today from my college years, so's i thought i'd give you all a glimpse to my past so you can, well, see some pics from my college years! hold on, here we go!!!
this pic was at the end of my freshmen year. in the picture is the new and fresh faces of the ambassadors, grace university's premier traveling and singing group. we rocked! (pssst! the one on the far right is amber).
and this pic was the NEXT year's ambassadors (yes, i was in it two years... yay for me!!!). we were making a CD that we totally ROCKED on! and note again, amber made it two years also! as a matter of fact, we're all buddy-buddy in this pic. we're so FREAKIN' CUTE!!! and notice erin looking at us like we're freaks... *giggle*
the FINAL pic is of my friend joe and i. we were the bestest of friends first semester of our freshmen year. it was not long after that that i realized i was actually pretty much in love with him. and why not!?! look at him, he's fucking GORGEOUS! plus, we look pretty hot together... don't-cha think? *huge sigh* even now, i'm still in love with that concept of him and i together. he was my first love you know. truly! after looking back in my life i realized i first fell in love when i met joseph. hey, joe... if-n you're out there, come back to me (foks, there's a much larger story to this, yes, he was in love with me too as i found out years later... trust me, it gets even more complicated, no need for it now).
so THAT'S some of my past! hope you enjoyed it!!!
*sentimental hugs* to jen and amber
so anyway, i came across some pics today from my college years, so's i thought i'd give you all a glimpse to my past so you can, well, see some pics from my college years! hold on, here we go!!!
this pic was at the end of my freshmen year. in the picture is the new and fresh faces of the ambassadors, grace university's premier traveling and singing group. we rocked! (pssst! the one on the far right is amber).
and this pic was the NEXT year's ambassadors (yes, i was in it two years... yay for me!!!). we were making a CD that we totally ROCKED on! and note again, amber made it two years also! as a matter of fact, we're all buddy-buddy in this pic. we're so FREAKIN' CUTE!!! and notice erin looking at us like we're freaks... *giggle*
the FINAL pic is of my friend joe and i. we were the bestest of friends first semester of our freshmen year. it was not long after that that i realized i was actually pretty much in love with him. and why not!?! look at him, he's fucking GORGEOUS! plus, we look pretty hot together... don't-cha think? *huge sigh* even now, i'm still in love with that concept of him and i together. he was my first love you know. truly! after looking back in my life i realized i first fell in love when i met joseph. hey, joe... if-n you're out there, come back to me (foks, there's a much larger story to this, yes, he was in love with me too as i found out years later... trust me, it gets even more complicated, no need for it now).
so THAT'S some of my past! hope you enjoyed it!!!
*sentimental hugs* to jen and amber
10 December, 2004
la La LA it's CHRISTMAS TIME!!!
tommy is really happy today = )
CAUSE IT'S CHRISTMAS TIME!!!!
AND because his picture hosting is back... so here we go w/ some christmas time pics brought to you by nakachunkoff's personal universe!!!
this is [part of] my apartment at christmas time... notice the warm glow that i've created in the rooms in an attempt to usher in the beauty of a homey atmosphere. if you were there you would have heard soft carols in the background...
this is my christmas tree up close. i add to it every year. yes, it's all gay-ish and such, but isn't it still FABU!?!?!?!
this is my cat gus looking all artsy-fartsy and stuff (he's being lit by the christmas tree you know). yeah, he likes doing these art photo shoots - all bohemian-ish and such. what a cutie
and this is my other cat alma trying to look like she's all cool with the whole christmas thing (all teen-ish and all) although i have a feelin' that deep down inside all that hair is a little gingerbread cookie that is shitting gumdrops in excitement for christmas morning.
so, that's my apartment and my family at christmas. hope you enjoyed this presentation... yes, i'm a christmas freak... but how many times a year do you get to decorate your home so extravagantly and truly be festively all happy-ish!!!
enjoy your weekend everyone!!!
CAUSE IT'S CHRISTMAS TIME!!!!
AND because his picture hosting is back... so here we go w/ some christmas time pics brought to you by nakachunkoff's personal universe!!!
so, that's my apartment and my family at christmas. hope you enjoyed this presentation... yes, i'm a christmas freak... but how many times a year do you get to decorate your home so extravagantly and truly be festively all happy-ish!!!
enjoy your weekend everyone!!!
08 December, 2004
ahhhh
i feel so much better now that i have my picture hosting back again. and because you asked amber, i'll have a comparison pic up soon so you can see me before and after the "makeover!"
oh for fun!
my friends/co-workers can be so cute sometimes.
background: last night i gave myself a "makover." i got a haircut, dyed it dark brown, and shaved off the beard that's been 2 months in the making. then this morning i actually dressed up for work so i look like a stunning not-quite-the-swan presentation of the new tom.
now back to where i was.
my friends/co-workers can be so cute sometimes. with the exception of the two people i told i was going to do this... everyone else looks at me and can't figure out what i did. some say, "you look nice today - you dressed up!" others say, "you cut your hair." yet others say, "did you shave?" and my favorite, "something's different... but what?"
i just have to laugh... do one change and everyone notices. do four changes and for the life of themselves people can't even pick out one! = )
background: last night i gave myself a "makover." i got a haircut, dyed it dark brown, and shaved off the beard that's been 2 months in the making. then this morning i actually dressed up for work so i look like a stunning not-quite-the-swan presentation of the new tom.
now back to where i was.
my friends/co-workers can be so cute sometimes. with the exception of the two people i told i was going to do this... everyone else looks at me and can't figure out what i did. some say, "you look nice today - you dressed up!" others say, "you cut your hair." yet others say, "did you shave?" and my favorite, "something's different... but what?"
i just have to laugh... do one change and everyone notices. do four changes and for the life of themselves people can't even pick out one! = )
07 December, 2004
jews on the mind
today my unkymood is zen-like because it's the only religious one i could find. you see, tonight at sundown begins one of my favorite holidays... chanukah. yes my friends, i celebrate chanukah. why?
WHELL...
the way i figure it... w/out the jews there wouldn't be any christians. without the jews there wouldn't be any muslims. and without the jews we wouldn't have those FABULOUS menorahs = ) so celebrating chanukah is like celebrating an ancient festival that has been lost and forgotten by so many people who take christianity for granted to the point that they've pretty much convinved themselves that christianity was created by god on the eighth day (hell-OOO people!!! remember abraham, the exodus, the diaspora???). sheesh.
so to bring this blog back to where it began. i chose "zen-like" as my mood because there wasn't one out there called "jewish".
barukh atah Adonai...
WHELL...
the way i figure it... w/out the jews there wouldn't be any christians. without the jews there wouldn't be any muslims. and without the jews we wouldn't have those FABULOUS menorahs = ) so celebrating chanukah is like celebrating an ancient festival that has been lost and forgotten by so many people who take christianity for granted to the point that they've pretty much convinved themselves that christianity was created by god on the eighth day (hell-OOO people!!! remember abraham, the exodus, the diaspora???). sheesh.
so to bring this blog back to where it began. i chose "zen-like" as my mood because there wasn't one out there called "jewish".
barukh atah Adonai...
06 December, 2004
never the needy
so the girl who sits next to me at work won $100k on the powerball game this weekend. yeah, you read that right, one hundred THOUSAND dollars.
when asked if they got their picture taken and such for the papers she responded with "no, they don't take pictures for the smaller amounts, i mean, it's not a million dollars or anything."
yeah... i guess 100k really isn't that much when you look at it. come to think of it, i'm glad i didn't win it myself... it's really not enough to do anything significant with.
what a waste of perfectly good lottery cash.
fuck.
when asked if they got their picture taken and such for the papers she responded with "no, they don't take pictures for the smaller amounts, i mean, it's not a million dollars or anything."
yeah... i guess 100k really isn't that much when you look at it. come to think of it, i'm glad i didn't win it myself... it's really not enough to do anything significant with.
what a waste of perfectly good lottery cash.
fuck.
02 December, 2004
one day more
that's what i keep telling myself...
"self," i say "just one more day... one day more... 8 more hours of this crazy thing we call work."
then i remind myself that dad is coming up this weekend.
"hey," i say to myself "your dad is coming up tomorrow and you're going to have a hell of a time with him on your first annual father-son weekend."
then i usually sing a song.
"i've got a love-e-ly bunch of coconuts (doo doo doo doo) there there are a-standing in a row (bum-bum-bum)"
it's usually around this time i remember i'm supposed to be working.
"fuck," i say "i'm at work, i better get some work done so i can say i did SOMETHING at my update next week."
and then i almost invariablly end up singing another song.
"merry christmas darling, happy new year too..."
to which the response is kind-a repetetive.
"fuck," i say again "work goddammit!"
and then it comes full circle.
"just one more day... one day more... 8 more hours of this crazy thing we call work."
and now you know what it's like to be in my head.
"sometimes you wanna go, where everybody knows your naa-aaaa-aaame (bum-bum-bum-bum) and they're always glad you caa-aaa-aame (bum-bum-bum) you wanna go where people know... troubles are all the same... you wanna go where everybody knows your name (ba-da ba-da bum bum... boom-boom... ba-da ba-da bum bum... boom boom)"
"self," i say "just one more day... one day more... 8 more hours of this crazy thing we call work."
then i remind myself that dad is coming up this weekend.
"hey," i say to myself "your dad is coming up tomorrow and you're going to have a hell of a time with him on your first annual father-son weekend."
then i usually sing a song.
"i've got a love-e-ly bunch of coconuts (doo doo doo doo) there there are a-standing in a row (bum-bum-bum)"
it's usually around this time i remember i'm supposed to be working.
"fuck," i say "i'm at work, i better get some work done so i can say i did SOMETHING at my update next week."
and then i almost invariablly end up singing another song.
"merry christmas darling, happy new year too..."
to which the response is kind-a repetetive.
"fuck," i say again "work goddammit!"
and then it comes full circle.
"just one more day... one day more... 8 more hours of this crazy thing we call work."
and now you know what it's like to be in my head.
"sometimes you wanna go, where everybody knows your naa-aaaa-aaame (bum-bum-bum-bum) and they're always glad you caa-aaa-aame (bum-bum-bum) you wanna go where people know... troubles are all the same... you wanna go where everybody knows your name (ba-da ba-da bum bum... boom-boom... ba-da ba-da bum bum... boom boom)"
30 November, 2004
a super-cool linus quote
"we have not succeeded in answering all of our problems. indeed, we often feel we have not completely answered any of them. for the answers we have found only serve to raise a whole set of new questions. and in some ways we feel we are as confused as ever, but we believe we are confused on a much higher level, and about much more important things."
29 November, 2004
me likey egg foo young
the title says it all = )
what a to-be busy week! i'm in a training class all day today, all day tomorrow, wednesday morning, thursday morning, and friday morning. giving me a total of only about 1 1/2 days of actual time to work... which may not be any different than normal, it's just that for the other 3 1/2 days i'll be doing something other than surfing the internet and blogging.
just kidding, yes, i work.
anyway - good weekend, good thanksgiving, good church services, good liquor, good shows, good sex. yes, i lost my virginity this weekend. and no... not to a woman... awe hell... who am i kidding, i'm no virgin = )
anyway, i must go, class starts in about 15 minutes or so and i need to jot some things down before moving on...
what a to-be busy week! i'm in a training class all day today, all day tomorrow, wednesday morning, thursday morning, and friday morning. giving me a total of only about 1 1/2 days of actual time to work... which may not be any different than normal, it's just that for the other 3 1/2 days i'll be doing something other than surfing the internet and blogging.
just kidding, yes, i work.
anyway - good weekend, good thanksgiving, good church services, good liquor, good shows, good sex. yes, i lost my virginity this weekend. and no... not to a woman... awe hell... who am i kidding, i'm no virgin = )
anyway, i must go, class starts in about 15 minutes or so and i need to jot some things down before moving on...
24 November, 2004
many thanks
as i'm getting more and more excited to go home tonight and decorate my tree i've made myself stop and think about what tomorrow is... thanksgiving... not christmas. = )
anyway - i wanted to take this moment to send a great big hug to all my friends, tangible and non-tangible. i've learned a lot in the last few years and one of the biggest things is the importance of family. i've also learned the importance of creating a family of your own outside of the nuclear family.
and that is who you all are.
without you i wouldn't have a place to laugh, be silly, cry, bitch, moan, share my crazy stories, and get my ever-so-needed support in tough times. without you i'd go crazier than i already am, and without you i'd probably still be in ruts that i formed years ago and were lovingly lifted out of by some of you. you truly are my support and my confidence when times are shitty, and you seriously bring me hope and honest-to-goodness love of life with every interraction i have with you, whether it's in person, by phone, over email, or even a short comment on my blog from an unknown person i may never hear from again.
so in this season, ever so sappy as it is, i say thank you for being my friends.
now go get laid.
anyway - i wanted to take this moment to send a great big hug to all my friends, tangible and non-tangible. i've learned a lot in the last few years and one of the biggest things is the importance of family. i've also learned the importance of creating a family of your own outside of the nuclear family.
and that is who you all are.
without you i wouldn't have a place to laugh, be silly, cry, bitch, moan, share my crazy stories, and get my ever-so-needed support in tough times. without you i'd go crazier than i already am, and without you i'd probably still be in ruts that i formed years ago and were lovingly lifted out of by some of you. you truly are my support and my confidence when times are shitty, and you seriously bring me hope and honest-to-goodness love of life with every interraction i have with you, whether it's in person, by phone, over email, or even a short comment on my blog from an unknown person i may never hear from again.
so in this season, ever so sappy as it is, i say thank you for being my friends.
now go get laid.
23 November, 2004
welcome to quaziland, population 5
over luch today i was talking politics w/ friends and got fed up. "lets start our own country," i found myself saying. "see, that way, instead of politicians, we can all be gods!!!"
thats when all went to a very childish-hell in an easter basket.
i now introduce the fruits of our labor... quaziland.
thats when all went to a very childish-hell in an easter basket.
i now introduce the fruits of our labor... quaziland.
22 November, 2004
hunky dorey
the fam is gone and i have my apartment back to myself again. *sigh*
the weekend was absolutly fantastic. just a rollercoaster of fun and stress, but always fulfilling at the end. the time w/ the sista's was great, the dinner on saturday was yummy, the show on saturday nite turned out great, and the shopping on sunday was non-bank-breaking!!!
now it's christmas for me and my household!!! i can't wait to begin decorating tonight, how fun!!! yay!!!
the weekend was absolutly fantastic. just a rollercoaster of fun and stress, but always fulfilling at the end. the time w/ the sista's was great, the dinner on saturday was yummy, the show on saturday nite turned out great, and the shopping on sunday was non-bank-breaking!!!
now it's christmas for me and my household!!! i can't wait to begin decorating tonight, how fun!!! yay!!!
19 November, 2004
i'll have a holy spirit on the rocks with a twist of jesus
as i type i'm in the student lounge at north central university, and not the good north central that you're thinking of. currently i'm at my sister's college patiently waiting for my three sisters to get their asses down from my sister's dorm room.
actually it's not that bad, there's a really fucking hot guy standing next to me... he's wearing jeans a HOT long-sleeved teeshirt and a hat, he's actually really really cute in that i'm-a-conservative-christian-college-student type of way = )
maybe waiting for my sisters to come down from my sister's gals-only dorm room isn't that bad...
*evil grin*
those conservative-christian-college-guys are actually pretty easy to sack... these places are a haven for fags... hell, it's in bible college that i first had sex with a man... and then another, and another, and another... man... those were the days.
*sigh*
i complain so much lately about not getting any... maybe i should go back to bible college.
actually it's not that bad, there's a really fucking hot guy standing next to me... he's wearing jeans a HOT long-sleeved teeshirt and a hat, he's actually really really cute in that i'm-a-conservative-christian-college-student type of way = )
maybe waiting for my sisters to come down from my sister's gals-only dorm room isn't that bad...
*evil grin*
those conservative-christian-college-guys are actually pretty easy to sack... these places are a haven for fags... hell, it's in bible college that i first had sex with a man... and then another, and another, and another... man... those were the days.
*sigh*
i complain so much lately about not getting any... maybe i should go back to bible college.
now i know how my mom feels
i think i finally know what my mother goes through every year in preparation for thanksgiving dinner an festivities.
i have food to buy, food to prep, an apartment to clean, supplies to buy, towels to wash, pillows to fluff, a table to set and prep, a meal blessing to put together, two cats to deal with, and lots of wine to drink.
she's an amazing woman and i plan on being the same way this weekend... a FABULOUS woman who organizes a FABULOUS thanksgiving dinner!!!
i have food to buy, food to prep, an apartment to clean, supplies to buy, towels to wash, pillows to fluff, a table to set and prep, a meal blessing to put together, two cats to deal with, and lots of wine to drink.
she's an amazing woman and i plan on being the same way this weekend... a FABULOUS woman who organizes a FABULOUS thanksgiving dinner!!!
17 November, 2004
i'm being used.
my sister calls me today and says that i need to meet someone.
the someone is her new manager at work (also my other sister's manager at work... yeah, they both work at the same place). anyway, her new manager is supposedly an ass hole to them, oh, and gay too. they want me to meet him because, in my sister's words, "you're really cute, i mean, everyone thinks so... all the girls... all the guys... so, we were hoping you'd meet him (manager-fag) and that he'd like you cause, well, you're cute. you see, then if he saw what we (sister-bitches) had a cute, gay brother, well, then... he'd like us!"
oh, how nice = ) i'm being used for my queen-dom = )
the someone is her new manager at work (also my other sister's manager at work... yeah, they both work at the same place). anyway, her new manager is supposedly an ass hole to them, oh, and gay too. they want me to meet him because, in my sister's words, "you're really cute, i mean, everyone thinks so... all the girls... all the guys... so, we were hoping you'd meet him (manager-fag) and that he'd like you cause, well, you're cute. you see, then if he saw what we (sister-bitches) had a cute, gay brother, well, then... he'd like us!"
oh, how nice = ) i'm being used for my queen-dom = )
16 November, 2004
ah yes...
did you all hear the sigh of relief? yes, i went to verizon last night. i walked right up to their kiosk at the mall and told them they were fucking losers and reamed them and ripped them a new asshole... well, actually, i whined until they gave me a new phone for super cheap = )
so folks, i got my SCH-a670 back and am happier than ever. for a moment there i thought i was going to lose it forever and have to deal with a cheap-o for another 2 years, but no... they happily replaced my "water damaged" phone with a new one at an amazingly low price - i wish i could say it was cause the guy had the hots for me, but i think it really was because i put on my puppydog face and pouted my way to cell-phonian-bliss = )
*huge sigh*
and the java keeps rollin' in...
so folks, i got my SCH-a670 back and am happier than ever. for a moment there i thought i was going to lose it forever and have to deal with a cheap-o for another 2 years, but no... they happily replaced my "water damaged" phone with a new one at an amazingly low price - i wish i could say it was cause the guy had the hots for me, but i think it really was because i put on my puppydog face and pouted my way to cell-phonian-bliss = )
*huge sigh*
and the java keeps rollin' in...
15 November, 2004
fuck verizon
yeah, fuck verizon wireless those bastards. turns out that my phone has "water damage"... it was piss too you silly shits! so anyway, water damage is an insurance thing... did i get offered insurance on my phone??? well, i don't think i did... but of course, i could also be so worked up right now that i may be just thinking that i didn't... awe fuckidy-fuck-fuck-fuck.
so now i have to get a new phone, with no special discounts, and no special anything. i'm fucking furious. looks like it'll be a nice CHEAP phone... goddammit.
fuck those fucking fuckers.
may your shit jump out of the toiletbowl and eat you whole from the ass up...
so now i have to get a new phone, with no special discounts, and no special anything. i'm fucking furious. looks like it'll be a nice CHEAP phone... goddammit.
fuck those fucking fuckers.
may your shit jump out of the toiletbowl and eat you whole from the ass up...
ouch
i'm sore. and not in the good way. in the bad way.
the show went absolutly amazing this weekend. we had a super-cool opening night with tons of people there. the rehearsals all day were exhausting, my calves hurt, i have bruised knees, and lost about 20 lbs in sweat... but how fun for a super cool opening night!!!
oh, and i met a boy *blush* his name is ross and he's really really cute. and really really nice. we talked a bit on saturday and then i went over to his place for movies last night. we'll see where it goes, but it's cool none the less = )
oh, and i dropped my fucking cell phone in the toilet last night. i was in mid conversation too. how fucking irritating. *slumph* looks like i'll be heading out to the store after work to reap on the blessings of a warranty = )
the show went absolutly amazing this weekend. we had a super-cool opening night with tons of people there. the rehearsals all day were exhausting, my calves hurt, i have bruised knees, and lost about 20 lbs in sweat... but how fun for a super cool opening night!!!
oh, and i met a boy *blush* his name is ross and he's really really cute. and really really nice. we talked a bit on saturday and then i went over to his place for movies last night. we'll see where it goes, but it's cool none the less = )
oh, and i dropped my fucking cell phone in the toilet last night. i was in mid conversation too. how fucking irritating. *slumph* looks like i'll be heading out to the store after work to reap on the blessings of a warranty = )
11 November, 2004
the ten commandments, minnesota style
ya shure... ya know, i couldn't resist = )
1. der's only one god, ya know.
2. don't make dat fish on yur mantle an idol.
3. cussing ain't minnesota nice.
4. go to church even when yur up 'nort.
5. honor yur folks.
6. don't kill. catch and release, folks.
7. der is only one lena fur every ole. no cheatin'.
8. if it ain't your lutefisk, don't take it.
9. don't be braggin' about how much snow ya shoveled.
10. keep yur mind off your neighbor's hot dish, ya know.
1. der's only one god, ya know.
2. don't make dat fish on yur mantle an idol.
3. cussing ain't minnesota nice.
4. go to church even when yur up 'nort.
5. honor yur folks.
6. don't kill. catch and release, folks.
7. der is only one lena fur every ole. no cheatin'.
8. if it ain't your lutefisk, don't take it.
9. don't be braggin' about how much snow ya shoveled.
10. keep yur mind off your neighbor's hot dish, ya know.
10 November, 2004
huh...
i really don't have anything to talk about today. huh, doesn't happen often.
lets see, work is still busy, i'm still getting ready for my show, and tonight is my only night free until next monday. hey! thats something to talk about! nah. not really.
frustration though... one of my favorite blogs is down right now... how am i ever to know how things are going for the fags in utah!?!?! *sigh* in need a break.
lets see, work is still busy, i'm still getting ready for my show, and tonight is my only night free until next monday. hey! thats something to talk about! nah. not really.
frustration though... one of my favorite blogs is down right now... how am i ever to know how things are going for the fags in utah!?!?! *sigh* in need a break.
09 November, 2004
oh god...
i'm a slut. take the test yourself by clicking on the pic... then be sure to let me know your personal score = )
1096 and counting...
yes folks, it's that season again. the season of giving, the season of singing, the season of shopping, the season of eating, and the season of telling tom that he needs to settle down for a second and turn down that fucking christmas music!!!
yay - 1,096 hours till christmas!!! 45 days for those of you who are less hard-core. 1 month for you boring people.
lets see... i've begun my shopping/creating, i think i'm doing alright w/ the gift thing. the thanksgiving holiday has been figured out and christmas never needs figuring out... you always go home for the holidays. lessee, got the silver polished and the decorations are being planned and modified in my head. the parties are being set and dates are almost solidified... hmmm, am i missing anything? oh yeah, the tree... need to figure out how i'm doing that with two cats this year, we'll see - i'm sure that'll be a few blogs along = )
any suggestions people?
yay - 1,096 hours till christmas!!! 45 days for those of you who are less hard-core. 1 month for you boring people.
lets see... i've begun my shopping/creating, i think i'm doing alright w/ the gift thing. the thanksgiving holiday has been figured out and christmas never needs figuring out... you always go home for the holidays. lessee, got the silver polished and the decorations are being planned and modified in my head. the parties are being set and dates are almost solidified... hmmm, am i missing anything? oh yeah, the tree... need to figure out how i'm doing that with two cats this year, we'll see - i'm sure that'll be a few blogs along = )
any suggestions people?
08 November, 2004
butt plugg
last night was my friend bob's annual birthday party at christos. it's always a fun time with a neverending flow of wine and gay jokes. my only problem is that greek food just doesn't agree with me.
i've been going to this annual b-day party for four years now... and every time i get home from one i'm wishing i had eaten lighter or differently - yes, my butt just doesn't like me.
koto sto phyllo is what i had last night. an AMAZING mixture of chicken, spinich, feta, all wrapped, yes, in phyllo. it was so yummy i just loved it, but by the time the meal was over i had the... well... oopah's coming out of my shish-ke-bob if you know what i mean. oi.
do i care though? obviously not, i go back year after year and yell and scream and say i can't WAIT for next year... some things are just worth the pain = )
i've been going to this annual b-day party for four years now... and every time i get home from one i'm wishing i had eaten lighter or differently - yes, my butt just doesn't like me.
koto sto phyllo is what i had last night. an AMAZING mixture of chicken, spinich, feta, all wrapped, yes, in phyllo. it was so yummy i just loved it, but by the time the meal was over i had the... well... oopah's coming out of my shish-ke-bob if you know what i mean. oi.
do i care though? obviously not, i go back year after year and yell and scream and say i can't WAIT for next year... some things are just worth the pain = )
04 November, 2004
wisdom from within
my new security blanket is the blue moon coffee shop just over the river and a few blocks from my place. i go there to relax, to smoke out on their patio, to read on the grungy couches, i went there to hide on election night, and i went there last night to mourn. i guess mourning wasn't the only thing i was doing, i was escaping... again. escaping the drudgery of the democrats - escaping the fear and loathing - escaping the doomsday-ers - and escaping the negativity.
"is this any way to move on" i asked myself. "sure, i'm mourning myself, but i can't mourn forever... i mean, bush is going to mobilize and get going beginning tomorrow, why shouldn't i???"
and then i decided i needed a change... but what?
i consulted my oracle cards. say what you may, they've give me ass-loads of wisdom in the last few months.
i announced my request: "what do i do now?" and said my blessing: "green man, lord of nature, protector of the trees. give me the gift of your wisdom and the strength of your presence... guide my hands as i turn the leaves of your sacred oracle." and then i layed out three cards.
card 1 - scotts pine - as the pine tree stands above the rest, be so yourself. climb that tree and get a look at the whole picture of your situation. weigh the pros and cons, understand the full scope of what's going on around you.
card 2 - birch - the birch tree is the first to bloom in the spring and that's where you are right now: at a new beginning. for new beginnings rooted in the positive result in endings that are the same.
card 3 - gorse - gorse spreads like wild fire through the fields during all seasons. use your imagination and that firey drive to move forward in your endevours and never stop.
say what you may, but i was deeply moved by the message in the cards. my conclusion is as follows:
we are in a dark time, people hate people and divisions are deeper than ever before. there's a light at the end of the tunnel though, two terms are the limit. though we're technically continuing a cycle, we're logically coming down the hill... we're 1/2 way there. take this new beginning, as dark as it seems, and embrace it with love and excitement for even more drastic change in the future. remember, a good beginning results in a good end. karma is more real than ever. and now let our driving force be our love for our country, our love for our fellow man, and our love for democracy and truth... let THESE drive us, rather than fear and hatred, and we'll find ourselves more victorious than any other party, candidate, or law could ever hope to be.
move on america... change is on the way... don't give up hope.
*namaste*
"is this any way to move on" i asked myself. "sure, i'm mourning myself, but i can't mourn forever... i mean, bush is going to mobilize and get going beginning tomorrow, why shouldn't i???"
and then i decided i needed a change... but what?
i consulted my oracle cards. say what you may, they've give me ass-loads of wisdom in the last few months.
i announced my request: "what do i do now?" and said my blessing: "green man, lord of nature, protector of the trees. give me the gift of your wisdom and the strength of your presence... guide my hands as i turn the leaves of your sacred oracle." and then i layed out three cards.
say what you may, but i was deeply moved by the message in the cards. my conclusion is as follows:
we are in a dark time, people hate people and divisions are deeper than ever before. there's a light at the end of the tunnel though, two terms are the limit. though we're technically continuing a cycle, we're logically coming down the hill... we're 1/2 way there. take this new beginning, as dark as it seems, and embrace it with love and excitement for even more drastic change in the future. remember, a good beginning results in a good end. karma is more real than ever. and now let our driving force be our love for our country, our love for our fellow man, and our love for democracy and truth... let THESE drive us, rather than fear and hatred, and we'll find ourselves more victorious than any other party, candidate, or law could ever hope to be.
move on america... change is on the way... don't give up hope.
*namaste*
03 November, 2004
solemn reflections
this, my friends, is not a man of god.
1) a man of god is not arrogant in his spirituality, standing in the streets loudly proclaiming to the world 'god is on my side' and 'god speaks through me'. a man of god humbly prays in the darkness for forgivness and favor to be shown on him and that he'd have the strength to do the same to his fellow man.
2) a man of god does not destroy his planet. he does not encourage others to waste natural (and naturally dwindling) resources. he does not destroy god's beautiful forests, plains, waters, and animals. a man of god does everything he can to preserve god's beautiful green creation.
3) a man of god does not try to exault himself over others by diminishing the rights of his fellow man. a man of god respects all kinds of people respecting that god created every one of them for a reason.
4) a man of god does not kill others relentlessly. a man of god loves and lives for life.
folks... if you truly believe that this man stands for what is true and holy in your god... then your god is not very true nor holy.
1) a man of god is not arrogant in his spirituality, standing in the streets loudly proclaiming to the world 'god is on my side' and 'god speaks through me'. a man of god humbly prays in the darkness for forgivness and favor to be shown on him and that he'd have the strength to do the same to his fellow man.
2) a man of god does not destroy his planet. he does not encourage others to waste natural (and naturally dwindling) resources. he does not destroy god's beautiful forests, plains, waters, and animals. a man of god does everything he can to preserve god's beautiful green creation.
3) a man of god does not try to exault himself over others by diminishing the rights of his fellow man. a man of god respects all kinds of people respecting that god created every one of them for a reason.
4) a man of god does not kill others relentlessly. a man of god loves and lives for life.
folks... if you truly believe that this man stands for what is true and holy in your god... then your god is not very true nor holy.
02 November, 2004
from the mouths of babes
on sunday i was out w/ my wonderful friend, andy. being an 11 year old, andy has a way with his words. sometimes gut-wrenchingly funny and sometimes eerily true but always interesting. case in point, check out his most memorable quote of the day on sunday.
"you know... neither [presidential] candidate is that good. i mean, if george bush gets elected, we'll all die. if john kerry gets elected, we'll all die too, just with better healthcare."
from the mouths of babes people... from the mouths of babes.
VOTE TODAY GODDAMMIT!!!
"you know... neither [presidential] candidate is that good. i mean, if george bush gets elected, we'll all die. if john kerry gets elected, we'll all die too, just with better healthcare."
from the mouths of babes people... from the mouths of babes.
VOTE TODAY GODDAMMIT!!!
01 November, 2004
weekend update
well, what a crazy weekend!!!
it started with a horror flick night w/ my friend jess. on saturday i went out to the humane society and got me another cat! alma is a GORGEOUS lynx-pointragdoll and has the most wonderful temperment and personality. and gus seems to be getting along with her really well too!!!
saturday nite was a crazy time. my first halloween party in years, and thanx to gary to for putting it all together. booze and costumes and a dj that was not only amazing but WAY cute and new friends - how perfect of an evening. oh, and w/ a time change in the middle, it was a party-rrrrrrs dream come true.
sunday i did church, a rehearsal, and then off to trick-or-treat w/ andy my ex-neighbor boy. i hadn't done that in years and ended up having a super time.
what a wonderful weekend!!!
it started with a horror flick night w/ my friend jess. on saturday i went out to the humane society and got me another cat! alma is a GORGEOUS lynx-pointragdoll and has the most wonderful temperment and personality. and gus seems to be getting along with her really well too!!!
saturday nite was a crazy time. my first halloween party in years, and thanx to gary to for putting it all together. booze and costumes and a dj that was not only amazing but WAY cute and new friends - how perfect of an evening. oh, and w/ a time change in the middle, it was a party-rrrrrrs dream come true.
sunday i did church, a rehearsal, and then off to trick-or-treat w/ andy my ex-neighbor boy. i hadn't done that in years and ended up having a super time.
what a wonderful weekend!!!
quaziland
welcome to quaziland... a place where bliss reigns eternal, where politicians are non-existant, where everyone is a god over their own declared dominion, and where the god of all gods, qeus (pronounced keew-s), gets to wear a feather boa and wings (weeee!).
below you'll find a listing of our gods. quaziland is always growing and invites you to be a god in quaziland! just send a comment to ques (aka, tom). be sure to send your god's dominion and if you can, a short announcement to the citizens of quaziland about what they can expect of your godliness. ques will choose your official god-name.
quaziland diety
ques - god of all gods - tom
anamaliahnos - goddess of the animals - katie
shivamegalos - goddess over all of india's gods - nicole
widestreetsahma - goddess over suburbia - jessie (not confirmed yet)
duhlia - goddess over the idiots - mort (not confirmed yet)
keep watching as the population of quaziland grows!!!
below you'll find a listing of our gods. quaziland is always growing and invites you to be a god in quaziland! just send a comment to ques (aka, tom). be sure to send your god's dominion and if you can, a short announcement to the citizens of quaziland about what they can expect of your godliness. ques will choose your official god-name.
quaziland diety
keep watching as the population of quaziland grows!!!
29 October, 2004
*humph*
i'm poli-ticked-off.
i'm sick of the election, i'm sick of tv adds, i'm sick of talking to narrow-minded co-workers, and i'm sick of living in a swing state.
just let me vote for kerry, let him win, fix this fucking country, take it back from the jesus-freaks, and let me get back to my normal life before election '04.
thank you.
i'm sick of the election, i'm sick of tv adds, i'm sick of talking to narrow-minded co-workers, and i'm sick of living in a swing state.
just let me vote for kerry, let him win, fix this fucking country, take it back from the jesus-freaks, and let me get back to my normal life before election '04.
thank you.
25 October, 2004
inhale - exhale
i have a bronchial infection... basically, the cold taxed my bronchial tubes and the results is an asthma-like reaction. so what do i get? antibiotics and an inhaler to help me breathe... yay!
and after several days of drugs... i'm feeling much better - thank you drugs!!!
and after several days of drugs... i'm feeling much better - thank you drugs!!!
22 October, 2004
18 October, 2004
an open page
dear mary,
its been one year since i saw you last. it was a crisp fall day when some friends and i took a long lunch hour and wandered over to say hi to you. it was the first time i saw you in the hospital, and the last. everyone left, oddly enough, and left the two us alone - i sat on your bed and held your hand and just stared into your eyes. i so wanted to lay down next to you and just hold you, but i didn't, i horribly regret that now.
it was a few days later, the day after i first saw times square, that i received the voicemail that you had left us. i was relieved to hear you moved on in a peaceful manner, but i was also sobered knowing that your celebration was planned on the day before i was to see times square for the last time - i haven't been there since. i stayed knowing that you'd want it that way.
i still see you though. its amazing how i run into you at the grocery store, or at the gym, or randomly on the street. the cycle is always the same... "hey! its mary!" "oh wait, that can't be mary" and then the inevitable tears that well up. they're never expected, they just come. and the cycle always ends with me silently wandering to a quiet corner of wherever i am to spend a few moments colleting myself before living again.
then there are the times i remember you without realizing it. like today. someone was talking about how phone numbers at work are oddly synched up with friends, e.g., one number is 2345 while a friends number is 5432. i was about to pipe up about a good friend who's numer was opposite of mine... 1314 -vs- 1413. then i realized that number was yours. begin cycle.
your official date is on saturday. i'll be there - most likely running into several others.
i'll try to celebrate, but i can't promise anything.
its been one year since i saw you last. it was a crisp fall day when some friends and i took a long lunch hour and wandered over to say hi to you. it was the first time i saw you in the hospital, and the last. everyone left, oddly enough, and left the two us alone - i sat on your bed and held your hand and just stared into your eyes. i so wanted to lay down next to you and just hold you, but i didn't, i horribly regret that now.
it was a few days later, the day after i first saw times square, that i received the voicemail that you had left us. i was relieved to hear you moved on in a peaceful manner, but i was also sobered knowing that your celebration was planned on the day before i was to see times square for the last time - i haven't been there since. i stayed knowing that you'd want it that way.
i still see you though. its amazing how i run into you at the grocery store, or at the gym, or randomly on the street. the cycle is always the same... "hey! its mary!" "oh wait, that can't be mary" and then the inevitable tears that well up. they're never expected, they just come. and the cycle always ends with me silently wandering to a quiet corner of wherever i am to spend a few moments colleting myself before living again.
then there are the times i remember you without realizing it. like today. someone was talking about how phone numbers at work are oddly synched up with friends, e.g., one number is 2345 while a friends number is 5432. i was about to pipe up about a good friend who's numer was opposite of mine... 1314 -vs- 1413. then i realized that number was yours. begin cycle.
your official date is on saturday. i'll be there - most likely running into several others.
i'll try to celebrate, but i can't promise anything.
awe... poop.
before leaving this morning, i indulged myself in my most recent a.m. ritual of pocketing a vitamin c and a daily multi-vitamin to take when i make it to my first cup of coffee, soda, or drink of water. i've been doing this for about a week now in attempts to aleviate my self-diagnosed-bronchitis.
imagine my surprise when i realized that the vitamin c i've been taking for this last week has actually been a fiber laxative.
"hmmmm...." i think to myself as i leave, "i wonder how that's affected my life this last week."
and strangely enough, for the first time i didn't have an answer for myself.
imagine my surprise when i realized that the vitamin c i've been taking for this last week has actually been a fiber laxative.
"hmmmm...." i think to myself as i leave, "i wonder how that's affected my life this last week."
and strangely enough, for the first time i didn't have an answer for myself.
14 October, 2004
signed, sealed, delivered
by the simple advertising coax of air america radio online i have joined the democratic singles network dating website.
sooooooo... if you have some hidden infatuation with me, my personality, or my body, i suggest checking me out and dating me. yes folks, i may be datable again (is that how you spell datable... dateable... date-able... is that even a word?)
good luck, and may the best man win.
sooooooo... if you have some hidden infatuation with me, my personality, or my body, i suggest checking me out and dating me. yes folks, i may be datable again (is that how you spell datable... dateable... date-able... is that even a word?)
good luck, and may the best man win.
13 October, 2004
fall reflection
as i walk out of my building this morning i am greeted by the wind whispering to me that fall is here and that my winter dreams are well on their way.
the crisp breeze and chilly misty rain has coaxed an abundance of leaves to escape their prisons in the sky and cover the sidewalks in a collage of oranges, reds, and yellows, pasted down by a light coating of a paste-like rain.
the sky is a fallish shade of dim grey, a depressing color to some, but an invigorating color to those of us in the northland that get shivers at seeing that color, not as a result of the coolness in the air that it brings, but because it's a sign that the much anticipated turn of seasons is in progress.
jackets, sweaters, sweatshirts, and coffee adorn many a corporate-american this morning on their way into work - one more sign that the fall has officially taken it's hold on the lives of those around me.
many people say it is the perfect day to be at work, but i for one think the opposite - i'd much rather be encompassed by mother-nature on a day like this than in the middle of the summer when the sun is bright and the men are tossing around a football half-naked.
i stop walking and take a deep breath through my nose and mouth at the same time - the world momentarily stops around me and i'm surrounded by a chilly peace.
this is my energy.
this is my salvation.
the crisp breeze and chilly misty rain has coaxed an abundance of leaves to escape their prisons in the sky and cover the sidewalks in a collage of oranges, reds, and yellows, pasted down by a light coating of a paste-like rain.
the sky is a fallish shade of dim grey, a depressing color to some, but an invigorating color to those of us in the northland that get shivers at seeing that color, not as a result of the coolness in the air that it brings, but because it's a sign that the much anticipated turn of seasons is in progress.
jackets, sweaters, sweatshirts, and coffee adorn many a corporate-american this morning on their way into work - one more sign that the fall has officially taken it's hold on the lives of those around me.
many people say it is the perfect day to be at work, but i for one think the opposite - i'd much rather be encompassed by mother-nature on a day like this than in the middle of the summer when the sun is bright and the men are tossing around a football half-naked.
i stop walking and take a deep breath through my nose and mouth at the same time - the world momentarily stops around me and i'm surrounded by a chilly peace.
this is my energy.
this is my salvation.
12 October, 2004
ooh...
tom takes a mystical twist in his blog... see the new moon phase tracker at the bottom of my sidebar... thanx to eye of horus for that one = )
bask in the splendour of the universe...
bask in the splendour of the universe...
11 October, 2004
lateness
yeah, i'm still at work. how shitty huh?
so my rehearsal got cancelled tonight (for the cheap & tawdry show) so what do i do? work, dammit, work! i could be at home, lounging in a bath, eating icecream and reading a book... or i could be a coffee shoppe relaxing over a warm cup o' coffee and a good magazine... OR i could just be SITTING ON MY COUCH WATCHING TV! but NOOOOOO, i'm at work.
lousy work.
anybody know a cute and rich old fag who can still get it up?
so my rehearsal got cancelled tonight (for the cheap & tawdry show) so what do i do? work, dammit, work! i could be at home, lounging in a bath, eating icecream and reading a book... or i could be a coffee shoppe relaxing over a warm cup o' coffee and a good magazine... OR i could just be SITTING ON MY COUCH WATCHING TV! but NOOOOOO, i'm at work.
lousy work.
anybody know a cute and rich old fag who can still get it up?
was it a dream?
chicago came and went - a euphoric 12 hours that buzzed by so fast it seems as if it never happened.
we had an amazing time flying down (w/ mimosas) then taking the train down to the loop to check out millennium park, the corner bakery, and the art institute, and then heading up to boystown for drinks at roscoe's and dinner at the twisted spoke. a short train ride back to the car, evening vespers at st. johns lutheran church on montrose and then back in the plane for gin and whiskey.
on the way home, the pilot got permission to fly us around downtown, over navy pier, and down to soldier field... how beautiful to be cruising over lake michigan and checking out one of my favorite cities at night. *sigh*
sunday was composed of church, rehearsal, movie, book shopping, and extreme makeover: home edition - and, yes, it made me cry... again = )
hope your weekends were as wonderful as mine - catch you all later!
we had an amazing time flying down (w/ mimosas) then taking the train down to the loop to check out millennium park, the corner bakery, and the art institute, and then heading up to boystown for drinks at roscoe's and dinner at the twisted spoke. a short train ride back to the car, evening vespers at st. johns lutheran church on montrose and then back in the plane for gin and whiskey.
on the way home, the pilot got permission to fly us around downtown, over navy pier, and down to soldier field... how beautiful to be cruising over lake michigan and checking out one of my favorite cities at night. *sigh*
sunday was composed of church, rehearsal, movie, book shopping, and extreme makeover: home edition - and, yes, it made me cry... again = )
hope your weekends were as wonderful as mine - catch you all later!
07 October, 2004
yay for me!!!
wanna hear my saturday plans??? tough, you're going to hear them anyway.
so... i'll be getting up nice and early and going to a regional airport w/ some friends of mine to take a private plane to chicago for the day!!! we'll fly down at 8am, go to the art institute and the newly opened millennium park, go to a hymn festival in the evening, and fly home that night!!!
i'm so excited i could just wizzzz in my khakis!!!
so... i'll be getting up nice and early and going to a regional airport w/ some friends of mine to take a private plane to chicago for the day!!! we'll fly down at 8am, go to the art institute and the newly opened millennium park, go to a hymn festival in the evening, and fly home that night!!!
i'm so excited i could just wizzzz in my khakis!!!
06 October, 2004
crazy people
actual phone conversation at 3:30pm today...
dana - "hey, can you call me later"
tom - "why, are you really busy right now?"
d - "yeah, really busy, can you call me later?"
t - "um, no, i'm teaching right now."
d - "geeze, you're ALWAYS teaching"
t - "um, yeah... cause i'm a teacher"
i swear, my friends are blonder than myself sometimes...
dana - "hey, can you call me later"
tom - "why, are you really busy right now?"
d - "yeah, really busy, can you call me later?"
t - "um, no, i'm teaching right now."
d - "geeze, you're ALWAYS teaching"
t - "um, yeah... cause i'm a teacher"
i swear, my friends are blonder than myself sometimes...
lab time
well, i'm about 5.5 hours into my training session today. surprisingly enough, i haven't even gotten close to rasping my voice either! how nice - sigh.
ahhhh! HORRIBLY sad... joyce jillson died today. *sniff* *sniff* i'm seriously terrified, where AM i going to get my daily horoscope from? as she dies a part of me dies with her...
yeah, whatever. it's sad, but not worth bustin' a nut over *wink*
btw - thanx for the really sweet comment, blues mama! how nice to hear from someone i don't know! my hugs go out to you = )
happy masturbation everyone!
ahhhh! HORRIBLY sad... joyce jillson died today. *sniff* *sniff* i'm seriously terrified, where AM i going to get my daily horoscope from? as she dies a part of me dies with her...
yeah, whatever. it's sad, but not worth bustin' a nut over *wink*
btw - thanx for the really sweet comment, blues mama! how nice to hear from someone i don't know! my hugs go out to you = )
happy masturbation everyone!
good morning!
hello everyone!
the timestamp doesn't lie... yes people, i'm at work at 6:50am! you see, i'm teaching a full 8 hour class today and felt the necessity to be in extra early.
damn, the sun wasn't even BEGINNING to rise when i left for work, the parking lot only had 3 of the usual 30 cars in it, and i actually made it to work and was able to go to coffee w/ jess = ) i felt so blessed to be able to begin my day with her be-FORE nicole got to - eat THAT sucker!!! ha ha ha ha ha ha
yeah, mornings do weird shit to a person. i'd avoid them at all costs people, really, it's just not worth it.
happy day people! happy day = ) this may be a multi-blogging day because of the abundance of breaks we're going to have during the session, oh and all the exercises. my hugs to all!
the timestamp doesn't lie... yes people, i'm at work at 6:50am! you see, i'm teaching a full 8 hour class today and felt the necessity to be in extra early.
damn, the sun wasn't even BEGINNING to rise when i left for work, the parking lot only had 3 of the usual 30 cars in it, and i actually made it to work and was able to go to coffee w/ jess = ) i felt so blessed to be able to begin my day with her be-FORE nicole got to - eat THAT sucker!!! ha ha ha ha ha ha
yeah, mornings do weird shit to a person. i'd avoid them at all costs people, really, it's just not worth it.
happy day people! happy day = ) this may be a multi-blogging day because of the abundance of breaks we're going to have during the session, oh and all the exercises. my hugs to all!
05 October, 2004
don't talk to me
tom is fucking tired.
tom is bitchy.
tom has worked WAY too hard today.
tom wants to go home.
goddammit, tom IS going to go home.
you should to.
the end
tom is bitchy.
tom has worked WAY too hard today.
tom wants to go home.
goddammit, tom IS going to go home.
you should to.
the end
04 October, 2004
!!!
i made apple cider this weekend!!!
i hadn't done that since i was a kid and my mom and dad made us help gather all the apples from the tree in the backyard and haul them to the cider mill to process the crap (or juice) out of them. this weekend my friend brian and i did it ourselves with his medievil-torture-device-like-looking press. mmmm, mmmm, good shit! thanx for the super time brian - and for the killer meatloaf, jen!
the rest of the weekend included dinner/movie w/ a friend, another tip to bead monkey for christmas gift supplies, the coffee shope, and a really fun/fucked-up happy hour that was pretty much a 4 hour conversation about sex and orgies, i'm REALLY surprised we didn't end up in one... everyone was so hot and bothered after all that talk. whew - i'm getting hot now just thinkin' about it... i gotta go for a second...
*pitter patter to the bathroom*
i hadn't done that since i was a kid and my mom and dad made us help gather all the apples from the tree in the backyard and haul them to the cider mill to process the crap (or juice) out of them. this weekend my friend brian and i did it ourselves with his medievil-torture-device-like-looking press. mmmm, mmmm, good shit! thanx for the super time brian - and for the killer meatloaf, jen!
the rest of the weekend included dinner/movie w/ a friend, another tip to bead monkey for christmas gift supplies, the coffee shope, and a really fun/fucked-up happy hour that was pretty much a 4 hour conversation about sex and orgies, i'm REALLY surprised we didn't end up in one... everyone was so hot and bothered after all that talk. whew - i'm getting hot now just thinkin' about it... i gotta go for a second...
*pitter patter to the bathroom*
29 September, 2004
ahhhh
i took the air conditioner out of my bedroom window last night. what a great feeling to remove such a huge piece of shit reminder of unbearably hot days and shove it back in the closet (no pun intended). of course, the lack of the ac made my sleeping last night some of the best since i put it in! the temp dropped ungodly low and i had flannel sheets on my bed... what a perfect setup for a night of comfort and contentment all by myself = )
the next big step in moving towards and celebrating winter is to put on the storm windows... but i'll leave that step for a few months from now, i like having the windows cracked open too much. as a matter of fact i've had the same windows open the same amount for about 8 months now... how facinating = )
ok, i'm boring today, i know. i'm off to work some this afternoon (and most likey have a few too many smoke breaks). maybe i'll have a little more excitement to announce when i get back from bead monkey tonight!!!
the next big step in moving towards and celebrating winter is to put on the storm windows... but i'll leave that step for a few months from now, i like having the windows cracked open too much. as a matter of fact i've had the same windows open the same amount for about 8 months now... how facinating = )
ok, i'm boring today, i know. i'm off to work some this afternoon (and most likey have a few too many smoke breaks). maybe i'll have a little more excitement to announce when i get back from bead monkey tonight!!!
28 September, 2004
shit
got into work early today, staying till the usual time. i'm off to get sushi w/ a friend and then hopefully home to hang out w/ the pussy cat. i might stop by target and barnes -n- noble on the way home too.
no reason for the title of this blog - just like that word so much i thought i'd put it right on top!
oh, i had the first rehearsal for cheap & tawdry last night - oh how fun is this going to be... monkeys, pissing, vaginas, death, flying knives, virgins, hymen, smoking, drinking, s/m, spaking, and vomiting. i bet you just can't WAIT to see this show!
twill be a good one folks - i promise on my monkey's ass = )
no reason for the title of this blog - just like that word so much i thought i'd put it right on top!
oh, i had the first rehearsal for cheap & tawdry last night - oh how fun is this going to be... monkeys, pissing, vaginas, death, flying knives, virgins, hymen, smoking, drinking, s/m, spaking, and vomiting. i bet you just can't WAIT to see this show!
twill be a good one folks - i promise on my monkey's ass = )
27 September, 2004
birthday results
well, my birthday weekend was a success!!!
i made it to theatre de la jeaune lune, a house warming party, the men's warehouse, all of the galleria and especially len druskin, the minnesota orchestra, margaret cho and ani difranco, southdale mall, big bowl, the kitty cat klub, boom!, the gay 90's, the imperial room, jetset... and i think that's all!
i got to bed at 1 on thursday, 4 on friday, and 6 on saturday (which i guess really counts as sunday).
the drinking was kept to a surprising minimum with a culmination of beverages on saturday resulting in only a small headache on sunday morning (or afternoon if you consider that i woke up at 1:30pm).
what a fun time!!!
things i learned from my 26th birthday weekend:
mixing friends can be fun - but is exhausting physically and mentally
free food is good
free drinks are even better
the 90's sucks sometimes
first avenue is fucking SCARY at bar close... don't do it if you absolutly can help it
take a moroccan with you whenever you go out downtown minneapolis - not only is he cute, but he knows everyone
sleep is overrated
and my final moment of pride from this weekend - i spent a total of $4.50 over 3 days. $3 for a parking garage and $1.50 for motrin on sunday morning.
yay for birthdays!!! i think i need a year to recover...
ah hell... who's next!?!?!?!
i made it to theatre de la jeaune lune, a house warming party, the men's warehouse, all of the galleria and especially len druskin, the minnesota orchestra, margaret cho and ani difranco, southdale mall, big bowl, the kitty cat klub, boom!, the gay 90's, the imperial room, jetset... and i think that's all!
i got to bed at 1 on thursday, 4 on friday, and 6 on saturday (which i guess really counts as sunday).
the drinking was kept to a surprising minimum with a culmination of beverages on saturday resulting in only a small headache on sunday morning (or afternoon if you consider that i woke up at 1:30pm).
what a fun time!!!
things i learned from my 26th birthday weekend:
and my final moment of pride from this weekend - i spent a total of $4.50 over 3 days. $3 for a parking garage and $1.50 for motrin on sunday morning.
yay for birthdays!!! i think i need a year to recover...
ah hell... who's next!?!?!?!
blonde moment
so i'm driving into work this morning and a utility truck in front of me had an orange construction cone hanging upsidedown through a ladder.
on the cone was writing... all i caught was "peders", the ladder wrungs were covering the other letters.
i think to myself "huh, a pedestrian cone" then realize that pedestrian was spelled wrong. so, the next i try is to pronounce it some other way... i come up with "pay-day-ray-zhone" with emphasis on the second syllable. "huh" i think to myself, "it's a spanish pedestrian sign" not even thinking that pay-day-ray-zhone actually sounds more latin than spanish.
it's then that i look at the rest of the truck and realize its a pederson construction truck.
on the cone was writing... all i caught was "peders", the ladder wrungs were covering the other letters.
i think to myself "huh, a pedestrian cone" then realize that pedestrian was spelled wrong. so, the next i try is to pronounce it some other way... i come up with "pay-day-ray-zhone" with emphasis on the second syllable. "huh" i think to myself, "it's a spanish pedestrian sign" not even thinking that pay-day-ray-zhone actually sounds more latin than spanish.
it's then that i look at the rest of the truck and realize its a pederson construction truck.
24 September, 2004
woo hoo!!!
i made it onto the city pages babelogue listing! how fun is THAT!
i'm movin' on up (movin' on up)...
to the blog-side (to the blog-side)...
to a de-luxe listing in the city pages (woo, woo, woo)
YEEEEAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH! i'm movin' on up (movin' on up)...
in the blog world (in the blog world)...
finally got a piece of that...
***eew, pie? um... i don't want a piece o' pie, yuck. howz about***
finally got a piece of that tu-hu-hu-huuuube steeeeaaaaak!
i'm movin' on up (movin' on up)...
to the blog-side (to the blog-side)...
to a de-luxe listing in the city pages (woo, woo, woo)
YEEEEAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH! i'm movin' on up (movin' on up)...
in the blog world (in the blog world)...
finally got a piece of that...
***eew, pie? um... i don't want a piece o' pie, yuck. howz about***
finally got a piece of that tu-hu-hu-huuuube steeeeaaaaak!
***attention all!!! birthday plans***
***attention everyone!!!***
all are invited to my birthday "party"/gathering on saturday night! here are the deets...
where - boom! and the 90's
when - 10:30pm meet at boom! we'll take it from there as the spirit leads
why - duh, for my birthday silly
whom - everyone!!! especially you guys in iran, manhattan kansas, australia, and portugal
what to bring - $$$ to buy me drinks (no gifts allowed) i also accept cigarettes (parliament lights) as i assume i'll be running low by that evening.
***and now back to our regularly scheduled blog rantings***
all are invited to my birthday "party"/gathering on saturday night! here are the deets...
where - boom! and the 90's
when - 10:30pm meet at boom! we'll take it from there as the spirit leads
why - duh, for my birthday silly
whom - everyone!!! especially you guys in iran, manhattan kansas, australia, and portugal
what to bring - $$$ to buy me drinks (no gifts allowed) i also accept cigarettes (parliament lights) as i assume i'll be running low by that evening.
***and now back to our regularly scheduled blog rantings***
23 September, 2004
sponge-suey square-chop
today was the food day at work for my birthday. note, my birthday isn't for two more days, but everyone on my team is here on thursday and not on friday, i.e., i get more treats = )
although i was mortified when i turned the corner and saw obnoxious blue streamers and balloons announcing my increase in age, i was comforted when i saw the beautiful spongebob squarepants 'happy birthday' sign stretched along my cube wall = ) how thoughtful of them to decorate with my favorite cartoon character of all time... honestly... i have prolly 10 hours of sb/sp dvds at home.
oh the love - thanx to my team = )
ooh, next blog: my birthday weekend plans!!!
although i was mortified when i turned the corner and saw obnoxious blue streamers and balloons announcing my increase in age, i was comforted when i saw the beautiful spongebob squarepants 'happy birthday' sign stretched along my cube wall = ) how thoughtful of them to decorate with my favorite cartoon character of all time... honestly... i have prolly 10 hours of sb/sp dvds at home.
oh the love - thanx to my team = )
ooh, next blog: my birthday weekend plans!!!
22 September, 2004
vitamin c
i've eaten over 2000 mg of vitamin c today... i think i'm going to be shitting oranges tonight.
i haven't drank my daily water amount yet, only about 18 oz, which means the oranges are going to be shrivled.
i've actually been working quite hard today... those poor oranges are going to be so tough.
i have messed up men in my life - one wants to marry me but doesn't wanna have anything to do with me, another wants to marry me and takes every opportunity to jump the gun with it, another is really super cute but i'm thinking he may only be a friend, one is actually out there that i want to marry... but he's straight, oh yeah, and then there's all of the ones that fell in love with me that i never called back - i'm still waiting for them to somehow find each other on some "we hate tom" website and come to my place in the middle of the night, pour lube all over my bed, let my cat in the room so his hair gets all over the lube, and then make me lay in it while drinking tequila and listening to billy gilman *shiver* those oranges sure as hell better have vaginas.
i gotta pay bills - damn expensive oranges.
and all because i ate too much vitamin c. oh wait, this has nothing to do with vitamin c... what the fuck am i talking about...
i haven't drank my daily water amount yet, only about 18 oz, which means the oranges are going to be shrivled.
i've actually been working quite hard today... those poor oranges are going to be so tough.
i have messed up men in my life - one wants to marry me but doesn't wanna have anything to do with me, another wants to marry me and takes every opportunity to jump the gun with it, another is really super cute but i'm thinking he may only be a friend, one is actually out there that i want to marry... but he's straight, oh yeah, and then there's all of the ones that fell in love with me that i never called back - i'm still waiting for them to somehow find each other on some "we hate tom" website and come to my place in the middle of the night, pour lube all over my bed, let my cat in the room so his hair gets all over the lube, and then make me lay in it while drinking tequila and listening to billy gilman *shiver* those oranges sure as hell better have vaginas.
i gotta pay bills - damn expensive oranges.
and all because i ate too much vitamin c. oh wait, this has nothing to do with vitamin c... what the fuck am i talking about...
cool sign
my wonderful friend amy just ordered this great kerry/edwards sign. you should too!
BUSY days around here, forgive me if i don't blog as much as i should.
oh, and the bday is on saturday... everyone ready???
BUSY days around here, forgive me if i don't blog as much as i should.
oh, and the bday is on saturday... everyone ready???
21 September, 2004
hola
good morning my dear friends, i'm teaching the "relational database design and admin basics" class this morning. right now the class is doing some small-group research on database cardinality, how fun is that!
i just thought i should stop by and say hi.
what did i do last night you ask? well... i worked till about 6:30, got home at 7, drank two beers, ordered chinese delivery, had a smoke, ate one of those awesome blueberry pies from sa, and went to bed. yes, you heard it right... i went to bed around 10pm last night. i thought i deserved it after working almost 11 hours yesterday = )
oops, time to teach about cardinality and referential integrity!!!
*smooch*
i just thought i should stop by and say hi.
what did i do last night you ask? well... i worked till about 6:30, got home at 7, drank two beers, ordered chinese delivery, had a smoke, ate one of those awesome blueberry pies from sa, and went to bed. yes, you heard it right... i went to bed around 10pm last night. i thought i deserved it after working almost 11 hours yesterday = )
oops, time to teach about cardinality and referential integrity!!!
*smooch*
20 September, 2004
love won out
this weekend i took a stand against the right-wing christian ideal that glbt folks, like myself, can (and should) escape this horrible life of sin and turn back to the straight godhead.
myself, and my friend nick, took our signs to arden hills, minnesota to protest the love won out conference. i donned my sign that read in big bold letters "i am a gay christian." among the 30 or so people at our peaceful protest, we were the oldest, at a mere 23 and 26. a majority of the kids came from highland park high school in saint paul... my blessings on all of you guys 10-fold.
this was a new step for me. and a scary one. i didn't know what to expect, yet i went anyway, the conviction to go woke me up that morning and i would have just died all weekend had i not stood up for my rights and beliefs.
i was touched by the support we had from random kids telling us stories of how the news of the protest went through every class on friday and that earlier in the day they had at least 2x as many protesters. i was also horrified at the amount of people who drove by and chose to flip the bird or swear obscenities out their windows at peaceful youth, bearing signs reading "i am a gay christian", "agape", and "celebrate diversity." what is it about these oh so peaceful and loving comments that scare and intimidate people to the point of being obscene.
people, it's a fucked-up world we live in if we can't even gather peacefully to celebrate our differences without being attacked.
as a gay human being it's not just my responsibility to perpetuate love in this situation... it's yours too.
stand up against hatred.
i am a gay christian
myself, and my friend nick, took our signs to arden hills, minnesota to protest the love won out conference. i donned my sign that read in big bold letters "i am a gay christian." among the 30 or so people at our peaceful protest, we were the oldest, at a mere 23 and 26. a majority of the kids came from highland park high school in saint paul... my blessings on all of you guys 10-fold.
this was a new step for me. and a scary one. i didn't know what to expect, yet i went anyway, the conviction to go woke me up that morning and i would have just died all weekend had i not stood up for my rights and beliefs.
i was touched by the support we had from random kids telling us stories of how the news of the protest went through every class on friday and that earlier in the day they had at least 2x as many protesters. i was also horrified at the amount of people who drove by and chose to flip the bird or swear obscenities out their windows at peaceful youth, bearing signs reading "i am a gay christian", "agape", and "celebrate diversity." what is it about these oh so peaceful and loving comments that scare and intimidate people to the point of being obscene.
people, it's a fucked-up world we live in if we can't even gather peacefully to celebrate our differences without being attacked.
as a gay human being it's not just my responsibility to perpetuate love in this situation... it's yours too.
stand up against hatred.
i am a gay christian
the results of my weekend todo list
among other things i painted my bathroom, put up these really cool new shoe racks from ikea, and ate food. how fun and relaxing of a weekend! yay!!!
17 September, 2004
my weekend todo list
it's not too long... just a few things for me to do. come monday you'll get a full update on the sucess of my endevors = )
happy weekend everyone!
16 September, 2004
boredom
well, i'm not REALLY bored, i was just in a bored phone-meeting. so boring i ended up drawing all over my left thumbnail with a red marker. such a cool design too: it was three lines made of little dots that intersected my nail with the meeting point being in the upper right-hand corner, thus creating six unequal 'pie' pieces. i then filled every other pie piece with tiny little dots. the end result looked like a really nicely done 'bomb shelter' sign. i'm so talented = )
oh, and when i was waiting for the bus this morning i found a button stuck into the bark of a tree. 'huh, a button in a tree, how unusual' i thought to myself. when i read the button i immediately ripped it off the tree, stuffed it in pocket before anyone could see me, and the proudly attached it to my man bag... what did it say? "well, today was a total waste of makeup"
*uncontrolable gay giggling*
oh, and when i was waiting for the bus this morning i found a button stuck into the bark of a tree. 'huh, a button in a tree, how unusual' i thought to myself. when i read the button i immediately ripped it off the tree, stuffed it in pocket before anyone could see me, and the proudly attached it to my man bag... what did it say? "well, today was a total waste of makeup"
*uncontrolable gay giggling*
quote
so my friend kate just came by my desk... she was listening to al franken's radio show. some lady called in and said a great quote (of course, referringto THOSE republicans).
"ya know... if you tell a lie enough times, stupid people will believe it."
how true...
"ya know... if you tell a lie enough times, stupid people will believe it."
how true...
whoa
last night i went to 'recent tragic events' at the jungle theater in minneapolis. this show approaches post-9/11-ism in a way i have yet to see on stage.
opening the show we're reminded that life twists and turns on us, many times leaving us with multiple potential outcomes, i.e. "what could have happened" in a very powerful and fun way we're reminded of this constantly throughout the first act.
moving on, the show takes you on a journey through that 'day after.' you remember it, 'america under attack' is playing on the tv constantly, you're sick of it but can't bring yourself to turn it off - this theme alone is so accurately portrayed in the simplicity of a tv on stage, constantly on, and a constant soundtrack playing the events over and over throughout the entire play. it's a strange flashback that i, myself, had almost entirely blocked.
it's a show not as much about love as they may have you believe, but it's a show about people in the midwest coming together, as happenstance as it may be, on the day after a terrible awakening.
i totally recommend everyone to see it, if not to relive these events in a non-political way, but to have your eyes opened to something you already knew about yourself... but maybe hadn't yet put into words.
recent tragic events @ the jungle theater (lake & lyndale), playing september 17 - november 6
opening the show we're reminded that life twists and turns on us, many times leaving us with multiple potential outcomes, i.e. "what could have happened" in a very powerful and fun way we're reminded of this constantly throughout the first act.
moving on, the show takes you on a journey through that 'day after.' you remember it, 'america under attack' is playing on the tv constantly, you're sick of it but can't bring yourself to turn it off - this theme alone is so accurately portrayed in the simplicity of a tv on stage, constantly on, and a constant soundtrack playing the events over and over throughout the entire play. it's a strange flashback that i, myself, had almost entirely blocked.
it's a show not as much about love as they may have you believe, but it's a show about people in the midwest coming together, as happenstance as it may be, on the day after a terrible awakening.
i totally recommend everyone to see it, if not to relive these events in a non-political way, but to have your eyes opened to something you already knew about yourself... but maybe hadn't yet put into words.
15 September, 2004
FINALLY!!!
i finished the beethovens!!!
symphony #4
symphony #6
symphony #5
to find out what the hell i'm talking about, click here
to find out what the hell i'm talking about, click here
14 September, 2004
a few minutes to waste...
well, i guess it's not really wasting my minutes if i'm blogging because it's like saying i'm wasting my minutes talking to a friend. i would never consider talking to a friend a waste of my minutes, that is unless that said friend wasn't much of a friend and i didn't want to talk to them, i guess that would be a waste of my minutes. but even if i didn't want to talk to them i would still have control over how i spent my minutes and if i didn't want to talk to them that badly then i wouldn't have, so my minutes used on the not-really-a-friend wouldn't be wasted at all.
so lunch is done and i had a few minutes to spare before going back to the grindstone... i chose to spend them on you, my blog buddies. you should all feel special = )
*communal sigh*
so lunch is done and i had a few minutes to spare before going back to the grindstone... i chose to spend them on you, my blog buddies. you should all feel special = )
*communal sigh*
13 September, 2004
1003!!!
my counter has officially hit 1000!!!
thank you to all of you wonderful people who have checked out my blog on an obsessive-enough basis to bring my counter over 1000 in such short time. i love you all!
thank you to all of you wonderful people who have checked out my blog on an obsessive-enough basis to bring my counter over 1000 in such short time. i love you all!
ooh FUN!
i just found this kick ass site! typingtest.com allows you to take a typing test (yeah, like the ones in high school) and get immediate results on your typing. for instance, my wpm is around 80, my accuracy is around 96%.
check it out for yourself, how much fun is typing!?!?!
weeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
check it out for yourself, how much fun is typing!?!?!
weeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
tettegouche and my private thoughs...
what a kick ass time! not only did our campsite have quite possibly the most gorgeous view of lake superior, the company made the time absolutly perfect!
check out jessie's pics online. all 133 of mine are on a cd and since i don't have snapshot or anything like that you'll have to email me and i'll send them to you myself!
i just have to say one more thing. my final thought:
check out jessie's pics online. all 133 of mine are on a cd and since i don't have snapshot or anything like that you'll have to email me and i'll send them to you myself!
i just have to say one more thing. my final thought:
throughout the centuries life has continued to become more and more hectic, bogged down, stressful, prepackaged, and unbearable - putting each and every one of us in a place that seems confined and endless. should it be a surprise that leaving the world as we know it, not worrying about showering, doing the hair, putting on makeup, smelling pretty, or being private about all-too-human things like going to the bathroom makes us feel more relaxed and content than we've felt in years? i camp not necessarily because it's fun (though it IS a blast), but i camp because it's when i'm camping that i'm faced with endless opportunities to focus back on the most important things in my life: myself, my higher-power, the nature that brings us together, and the friends that experience it with me. i camp because it reminds me that there are more important things in life than my debt, my car, my job, my apartment, my movies, or my music. i camp because it brings me to a place where, without a doubt, i'm going to be healed. i always leave feeling refreshed and ready for life, and ready for the next time i can be revived.
10 September, 2004
good morning!
just a quick note to say hi! i've been at work now for 1.5 hours... note that i'm usually pulling in around now on a NORMAL day = )
last night proved to be quite sucessful as i completed everything i was intending on doing... and a little bit more *wink*
as i head off to tettegouche for camping, i want all of you to have a super weekend... think of me up on the north shore, around a campfire, drinking huge amounts of beer and gin, smoking way too much, and freezing my ass off. don't forget the smores! and if you think of it, ask your higher power to remove some of the lung butter from my chest, i'm getting sick of having to spit everytime i cough. sorry if i grossed any of you out = )
toodle-ooo!
last night proved to be quite sucessful as i completed everything i was intending on doing... and a little bit more *wink*
as i head off to tettegouche for camping, i want all of you to have a super weekend... think of me up on the north shore, around a campfire, drinking huge amounts of beer and gin, smoking way too much, and freezing my ass off. don't forget the smores! and if you think of it, ask your higher power to remove some of the lung butter from my chest, i'm getting sick of having to spit everytime i cough. sorry if i grossed any of you out = )
toodle-ooo!
09 September, 2004
can you believe it!?!?
i have worked almost a complete 8 hour day without ANY distractions taking me away from my desk! i think its quite amazing, if i may say so myself, that a self-proclaimed adult with adult a.d.d. can do this.
of course, here i am, blogging. but i though, heck, i'm only here for another 13 minutes... i can't go and ENTIRE day without slacking = )
off to camp tomorrow... tonight i need to pick up the supplies, get my oil changed, buy tons of beer, get snacks, oh yeah... cigs, do laundry, and pack. can he do it folks? yeah... i have enough time, but do i have enough money... eh?
if i don't get time to post tomorrow... everyone have a FUCKIN' SUPER weekend!!!
of course, here i am, blogging. but i though, heck, i'm only here for another 13 minutes... i can't go and ENTIRE day without slacking = )
off to camp tomorrow... tonight i need to pick up the supplies, get my oil changed, buy tons of beer, get snacks, oh yeah... cigs, do laundry, and pack. can he do it folks? yeah... i have enough time, but do i have enough money... eh?
if i don't get time to post tomorrow... everyone have a FUCKIN' SUPER weekend!!!
08 September, 2004
i'm alright... i'm allllllllright
for those of you who were getting your thongs in a bunch... i'm doing ok. the gas is gone.
*huge grin*
but my cold has officially moved into my chest, i coughed myself into a headache last night and could only go to bed to make it better. i hate coughing and i hate headaches. and i HATE lung butter... nuff said.
it's finally getting cooler outside and i'm estatically packing for my camping trip this weekend to tettegouche state park on the north shore. twill be a chilly one but will be a refreshing change from the normal city life... i can't WAIT for smores and gin and smokes and pooping in the woods!!!
fyi - no blogging from friday - sunday this week cause of the camping. i AM working till 11 on friday so i'll try my hardest to get a blog in before i go = )
*huge grin*
but my cold has officially moved into my chest, i coughed myself into a headache last night and could only go to bed to make it better. i hate coughing and i hate headaches. and i HATE lung butter... nuff said.
it's finally getting cooler outside and i'm estatically packing for my camping trip this weekend to tettegouche state park on the north shore. twill be a chilly one but will be a refreshing change from the normal city life... i can't WAIT for smores and gin and smokes and pooping in the woods!!!
fyi - no blogging from friday - sunday this week cause of the camping. i AM working till 11 on friday so i'll try my hardest to get a blog in before i go = )
07 September, 2004
*children in carpool alert*
don't eat the minnesota life cafeteria's chicken tortilla soup - sounds good... but there's only two words to describe it "gassy mess"
so i'm on the elevator after a meeting. i'm alone, so i take the opportunity to let a huge gassy fart rip through the oversized and echoey space... i impressed myself actually = )
but then the elevator stops on my floor and i get off... but my boss gets in. poor woman.
i sure as hell hope it stank like dead rats = )
so i'm on the elevator after a meeting. i'm alone, so i take the opportunity to let a huge gassy fart rip through the oversized and echoey space... i impressed myself actually = )
but then the elevator stops on my floor and i get off... but my boss gets in. poor woman.
i sure as hell hope it stank like dead rats = )
whooo doggies
what a weekend... had i done any less, my ass would have combined with the couch and we would have become one being. where were all my friend you ask?
jessie - managa
nicole - chicago
joe - phoenix
bill - doing a wedding
brian - duluth
mark - duluth
dana - not calling me
so as you can see, my friday and saturday nights blew. any plans i had planned on planning got smacked in the face. my two evenings consisted of sitting on my ass at home watching movies, tv, and adult videos, drinking 7up and gin -n- juice, and smoking here and there and everywhere.
then sunday came! i called jess and mark and said "dudes, we're going out... we're gonna drink too much, dance too hard, sweat too much, and get home too late." and it was so... nye's and the 90's what a mix.
oh, and how queer is it to go to a bar w/ friends and be able to say "i slept w/ him... and him... and him... and him... and dated him... and slept w/ his ex..." how embarassingly fun!!!
and i'm FINALLY getting a haircut tonight... say good bye to the alley cat... say hello to the fox = )
*grrrrrrrrrowl*
so as you can see, my friday and saturday nights blew. any plans i had planned on planning got smacked in the face. my two evenings consisted of sitting on my ass at home watching movies, tv, and adult videos, drinking 7up and gin -n- juice, and smoking here and there and everywhere.
then sunday came! i called jess and mark and said "dudes, we're going out... we're gonna drink too much, dance too hard, sweat too much, and get home too late." and it was so... nye's and the 90's what a mix.
oh, and how queer is it to go to a bar w/ friends and be able to say "i slept w/ him... and him... and him... and him... and dated him... and slept w/ his ex..." how embarassingly fun!!!
and i'm FINALLY getting a haircut tonight... say good bye to the alley cat... say hello to the fox = )
*grrrrrrrrrowl*
03 September, 2004
chinky-chonk
last night was a SUPERBLAST when my bestest girlfriend, jess and i went to uptown. until last night she was a chino latino virgin... yeah, we "broke" her of that *giggle*
a blackberry mohito, passion colatta, and pot stickers later and she was hooked... although i think i hooked her the moment her drink was delivered with the biggest-ass drink umbrella ever - almost big enough to protect j-lo's ass from the rain. nah, i don't think they make umbrella's that big.
love ya kiddo = )
i think i'm going to do my b-day party there... all are invited! even you guys in portugal and india and kansas and colorado and texas and...
a blackberry mohito, passion colatta, and pot stickers later and she was hooked... although i think i hooked her the moment her drink was delivered with the biggest-ass drink umbrella ever - almost big enough to protect j-lo's ass from the rain. nah, i don't think they make umbrella's that big.
love ya kiddo = )
i think i'm going to do my b-day party there... all are invited! even you guys in portugal and india and kansas and colorado and texas and...
i'm honored
statcounter.com has provided me with the wonderful counter in my sidebar. little did i know, though, that this tiny bundle of joy would give me SO much info about my readership!!! here are a few very interesting tidbits of information that i've found out through digging in my personalized section of statcounter.com.
*** disclaimer ***
although i've got all this ROCKIN' information now, NONE of it actually shows me WHO my viewers actually are. i guess if i was a REAL nerd i could dig and find out who each and one of you are and hunt you down to give you a big ol' sloppy kiss and hug, but i digress = )
although 95% of my readership comes from the us i'm happy to announce that 2% is coming from portugal, 2% is coming from india, and 1% is undisclosed! (whoever the FUCK is reading me in india and portugal - you guys get an extra sloppy kiss!!! i'm international!!! YAY!!!)
within the states, i have readership from minnesota, kansas, colorado, nevada, texas, georgia, maryland, and new york!
50% are accessing via windows xp, 49% on windows 2000, and 1% on windows 98.
how fun is THAT!
i must say a HUGE thanks to everyone who reads my blog... whether i force you to or if you found it and decided to make it one of your new quirky homes. tell your friends i'm a crazy fag in the frozen north that says whatever's on his mind. oh! and write me! use that freakin' comment thingy... i LOVE hearing from you!!!
i'm signin' off now, but check back often!
*hugs*
*** disclaimer ***
although i've got all this ROCKIN' information now, NONE of it actually shows me WHO my viewers actually are. i guess if i was a REAL nerd i could dig and find out who each and one of you are and hunt you down to give you a big ol' sloppy kiss and hug, but i digress = )
how fun is THAT!
i must say a HUGE thanks to everyone who reads my blog... whether i force you to or if you found it and decided to make it one of your new quirky homes. tell your friends i'm a crazy fag in the frozen north that says whatever's on his mind. oh! and write me! use that freakin' comment thingy... i LOVE hearing from you!!!
i'm signin' off now, but check back often!
*hugs*
02 September, 2004
i smell coffee beans...
yeah... mainly because i just spilled an entire cup of coffee all over my keyboard, mousepad, mouse, ipod, sticky notes, cords, passwords hidden under my keyboard, monitor... you name it, it has coffee on it.
that reminds me... for you grace-ites... remember dr. rushing's bible verse on the 'forbidden bean'??? something like 'thou shalt not drink of the forbidden bean.' what a heretic, the 'bean' as he calls it is one of god's most sacred creations, it brings life to all those who partake of it.
speaking of which, where the hell did that old guy go? i went to grace's website and he wasn't listed anywhere... did he leave?
talk to me!
that reminds me... for you grace-ites... remember dr. rushing's bible verse on the 'forbidden bean'??? something like 'thou shalt not drink of the forbidden bean.' what a heretic, the 'bean' as he calls it is one of god's most sacred creations, it brings life to all those who partake of it.
speaking of which, where the hell did that old guy go? i went to grace's website and he wasn't listed anywhere... did he leave?
talk to me!
01 September, 2004
hair
aahhhhhh!!!!! what to do about my crazy hair!?!?!?!?! i love it getting longer, and i love the way it eventually looks... but the TIME i spend trying to get it to look remotely good SUCKS! grrr... i need a haircut, i've got wings bigger than a heavy-flow maxipad.
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